It is your tight to feel anger, sadness, scared, worthlessness, along with many other feelings. You had your child hood taken away from you at an early age. My was at 6 yrs old. You went to someone that you trusted only not to be believed. So you kept quiet. As you grow older, that Anger and other feelings do not go away. You need to get counseling, joint a support group, what ever you can do to get through this. With the line of work that you are pursuing, it will interfere later down the road. Start journal. Keep it in a safe place where others will not find it. Admit what happened was not your fault. It took me over 4 years to get though what happened to me. My life was horrible even at the age of 3! Only to get worse. From as early as I Can remember, I was left alone with my sister taking care of me. She was 5. From 3-5 I was dropped off at a friends house of my mom's. Only to be beaten daily, locked in closets, burned by an iron, at 5 years old, I weighed 25 pounds. From 5-9 I was with another family that the 16 year old sexually abused me. At 9 I was taken out to rejoin my sister who was put into another home. From there, it was emotional abuse. Being told to hurry and get married before no one would want me led me into a horrible marriage that I was able to get out of after 23 years. Now I have the after effect of all that on my children. Trying to deal with not walking out early enough before it emotionally damaged my kids.......so back to you........Get help, call the local police department, ask if they know of any groups that can help you out. This will not go away. If at all possible down the road, confront the abuser. I did, and that was another step that helped me to survive. It takes time. You have good days and bad days. I know I did, but I also know that God, my higher power was there to help me. I could go on and on......but I best be going....good luck, and remember every day you wake up is a new beginning! Nora
