Messages By: boop40

my husband been telling me how lazy no good i am for 15 yrs so i became that now he is own memore about  it  tells me how stupid  lazy  bad mother  now he threants  me he going to leave if i don't change and start giving him money to help pay the bills he made 54,000 to my 10,000 and want me to pay 1/2 bills so he can keep doing what he want he drinks beer everyday and i can't afford to make it on my own i only work part time now i quit my job back in sept  no matter what i'm never good enough

today is the silent treatment my girls have been told by there dad to treat me bad to call me names repect i get none from no 1 in my home 

walking egg shells today worrying about what mood he he will be in when he comes home from work  he was hateful  this morning about money  but it was ok that his friends where here yesterday when i went to work he hs no problem giving them  money or feeding them drinking buddy's come before me

very true i need to get help and i wish i could feel bettter about my self his friend was here last night in their room drinking his friend drinked his beer and then left he take care of friends with no problem but let me ask for something

the things that goes in abuse relationship no 1 never knows its hard to leave when u love i know i live it  i think he jump out in front of the car to scar her because of the things she said he talk about he didn't think she would hit him she should have never left when u scared running is all u think then your brain starts working after the shock is over

we live that his money is his money and my money is his money have to explain where erevry penny goes he does not he spends money and makes alot more than me he drinks and therns to divorse me all the time over me not giving him enough money he makes 50,000 to my 10 and can't pay the bill without my help

my husband started in on me tonight how eveything my faulit says we are fixing to lose everthing because he's hasn't paid it and i don't pay enough in the house i did lose a good job back in sept i amitted i'm not perfit but he won't say it and because of my job i have done without so him and the kids coool have he make goood money but its fauilt we are losing everthing tell me how no good i am been working but not enough i came in tonight he came in got a beer and lefy then came in and started in on me because he help me with a bill  that i did not ask for but he all this but spends it on the wrong things and its fauilt because he work everyday and his money is his money .that its me not doing my part tells me he's going to leave us but i've heard it so many times and does it front of the girls there older we get tried of it has he says he don't mean but the veral abuse is hurting them too they are teens now and they act like him sometime i'm never good enough or do enough for them

because of my husband we are 2 months behind on our house payment i work but don't make enough money he's went threw 20,000 in 4 months and its my faulit to him that we r losing our home i'm so tried of this verbal abuse trying to find help to get me and the girls away but so hard for to make the change sometime i think i deserve it becausei have made mistakes with my money spend but why give it to him to party with his friends  then tell me how no good i am he says he going to leave but never does i can never be good enough it s alway should of done more i try to tell him him and he gets mad at me then he don't talk to me for 2 days i'm so tried of living like this but can't pick my feet up and do anything like in a pool with a rope on my foot pulling me down and afraid i'm going to drown before i can cut the rope i need help !!!!!!!!!

yes i do i did go get parpers for child support today 1 st baby step

love makes us do things thinking it will change and we know there is some good but all we can do what we can do to just get threw it tonight i ask about his money and it was none of my business