Messages By: darlynn82

I'm extremely obese and I can't seem to lose any weight. I'm a girl and I weight 119 pounds. I've been trying to lose weight for a few months, and I can't get anywhere below 119. No matter how much I try, nothing ever changes.

I have been with my boyfriend for a year and a half now.  We live together and get along great and love each other.  Lately we have been talking about getting engaged.  I would love to be engaged, but i have these weird feelings.  Some times i feel like i want to be single again, but then i think about it and think if i break up with him i really may not find someone that is as good as him.  He treats me very well, and loves me and would do anything for me.  I don't know if that makes me seem like I'm scared to be alone and if i break up with him then i might not find someone else.  I don't know what it is.  We have not talked about this, and i don't think it would be a good topic for us to talk about.  We recently got into a fight about the same one stupid thing that we fight about and i told him i was done with it because I'm sick of fighting over the same thing, and I'm done.  I told him if we fight about it once more I'm done with it all because its too hard emotionally on me.  When i said that he broke down and he didn't want that to happen, and at that moment i felt like i did love him and he is the one i want to be with.  But then a couple of days later i start to feel like sometimes i want to be single again.  I know i love him and when i think about it i couldn't find anyone better for me and i don't want to loose him.  But i just get these urges to go out and party like I'm single and see other people, but i would never want to loose him.  I am sooo confused.  Are these feelings at all normal?  Does everyone want to be single again at some point in their relationship,  or do i really not love him like i think i do?  PLEASE HELP ME!!!