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February 27, 2008, 7:00 pm PST
Please Do Not Be So Hard On Yourself!
Quote From: fancylady02After seeing the show today,may me wanted to write and tell everyone about a expericene that i had on here..i am a 59 years old female..in 1999 i was playing a yahoo card game and everyone that was playing was joking and having fun and of course,i was also..i was playing with guy..the very next morning,i received flowers and a really nice card though my mail from him,saying how much he enjoyed playing with me and i asked if i would join him that night and play again..of course,i said yes..well,one thing lead to the other and we started talking and sending emails to each and playing games everyday..he said he was 28..he sent his picture and i never lied about my age..i sent and picture of me and he knew my age..well,he told me he was going though alot with his girl friend and he started to talk about it to me..then,he told me that he had met a girl on here that he liked and she wanted to be with him..as it when on,he started to call me and we would talk for hours at a time..he kept asking me to help him break it off with this other girl..i advised him what i would do..the whole nine yards about changing your emails and make a new name and etc..well,he did..then,to find out he was playing with her with another name..she had changed her and he had changed his..this went on and on..the things that he wouild say to me,may be feel really special..he said things to me that no man had ever said..he started saying that he loved me..and by that time i loved..all i ever wanted was his friendship..and for us to best friends..any way,he ended up sending this other girl money..she was divorced and had 2 kids and she asked him for money and he would send it to her..i kept telling him not to,but,he kept on..he never sent me any money..on my birthday,he did send me a gift..and at christmas..he always had a post office box..he kept his number blocked..the first gift he gave me was a 200.00 diamond necklace..he had t his card and he wrote in there,that he couldnt put a ring on my finger,but,he could put one around my neck..i was so stupid back then..i fell for everything he told me..as time went on,he met this other woman playing cards and here it went again,he was still talking to me,and it ended up being 5 others..i cried a river over that guy..he told me that he got married..and his wife was expecting a baby..for over 6 years he told would call and we would talk and i thought we was sharing everything..i was going though a lot with my husband and he was always there for me to talk too..i never met him..any as time kept going by,then he left his wife and he was going to go and be with this woman that lived about 2 hours from me..he was sending her money already..he was paying her way to go to college..brought her a house and so on..i kept changing my email and changed my name over and over,but,he would always find me..i didnt want to change my home phone number because i had it for so many years..but,i did quit answering the phone,when he called..i think he enjoyed hurting and telling me what all he was doing for others..he never sent me any money..i never asked for any..my husband got sick and he called one day,after about 2 mons and i really needed to talk to someone..i had women friends but it was different talking to a man..after my husband passed away,i had a really hard time..i was trying to get my disbality going,so i could draw my late husbands money,because i wasnt old enough..i was laready trying to get it before he dies..he knew that i was having a hard time and he never offered anything..not that i wanted him to..he kept telling me how much he was putting out onon his new found love..then,finally i was so far behind in my rent..i did ask him,if he could let me borrow enough to pay a one month on my rent..it was just 225.00..well,he never answered me..then about 3 months later,he called and said that he was coming to see his love that lived about 2 hrs from me..i had already got my disbality by then..so,he left me his cell phone number..shock,shock..then one day,i woke up and i decided that i was going to go and see him..i called and told him and he laughed ..well,i started out driving there and he kept calling saying he wasnt nothing to see..i told him,i have known him for 7 years and i thought it was about we met..then,are you ready for this....he called and told me that he had something he had to tell me,and that i would probably hate him after he told me..i pulled off the side of the road and he told me that he wasnt who he had told me he was..everything that he had told was lie..for 7 years..he wasnt 28 he was 40...and he was married and and HE WASNT A HE,HE WAS A WOMAN..you cant imagine the feeling that went all over me..all this stuff he /she told was a lie..well,i decided to go ahead and met her..she came over that night at the motel..and the voice fit her..she had a coase voice..she wasnt there long,because she didnt want this other woman to find out that i was there..i cried and i cried..i was so upset..i called my daughter and my close friends and they wanted me to come on back home,but,i decide to stay another day..i wasted my money..she was so wrapped up spending time with her other friend,she would just call me..as i look back..i wished i had turned around and came back home after i met her..i was so stupid back then..there is alot that i letf out,but,deep down in my heart i did love him..we still talked up till oct of last year..i got sick and had to go tot he hositpal and when i got out ,she called like about a week later ,and i didnt get to my phone in time..so,i called back and she didnt answer ..i left a message saying that i had been in the hosiptal and i still wasnt well..she never called me back,till about 3 weeks later..i had already decided to change my phone number,and etc..my cell phone is till the same,every now and then she called and never leaves a message..which,i dont blame her for all of it..i was so stupid back then..i sent presents for a man ,and he was a she..i will never ever believe anyone on the internet again..it still bothers me at times..but,with the help of my real friends and the good Lord i am moving on with my life fianlly..it took me a long time..i read something about a week ago and it may be stop and think about my life..and what she done to me..to this day,i dont know why..she did it to all of us..me and this other woman knows the truth now..or should i say i guess its the truth..there was so much that i didnt say..but, at least i told you the high lights..i am taking one day at a time..go ahead and say what you want about me..i cant feel any worse.. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Like someone else said, you were just looking for love. We all want love, we all need love, you were in a lot of pain. I hope and pray that your pain gets healed. You are not a stupid person, and you had no way of knowing that someone who said they were a he was a she. Who would think that?
You sound like a really nice person. Take care of yourself! Be nice to yourself! You deserve it!
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