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August 25, 2006, 9:45 pm PDT

really depreat

Hi all I am doing Ok today, I am trying to take baby steps, and it seems to be working right now, as long as I don't take to many at one time, then I don't get pushed over the top.  I do have to watch my stress and anxiety level I do not handle it very well yet, I hope some day I will be back were I use to be but that may take years, But right now I am fighting to live for life and I have to live for I can't let this world fall on top of me.  so all in all I can say this week is been soso some ups and some downs.  but with the help of all my friends out here that I can talk to that know's what depression is all about and talk back is the beat help ever thank you all.  Larry
 
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October 28, 2006, 5:15 pm PDT

Hello every One

Hi I am doing Ok I know it's been a while, I have been doing a lot of thinking and soul checking and pushing my self to move the right way? boy it's been a fight but well worth it all.  I have had some very good battles with my self, you would not want to no!  then I had a stoke 12 weeks ago boy was that a blow I was on top a a 12 foot ladder I did not know why I was there or who any one was and what I was doing and almost fell.  But I am fine now got put on some new meds and I seem to be OK now.  I am winning this fight with the depression deaman I am stronger than it.  hehe.  well I just thought I would check in.  Larry
 
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October 31, 2006, 11:09 am PST

Hello SEA

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Nice to hear your CAN DO and WILL DO and WILL MAKE IT attitudy returning. So glad to know you didn't fall off the ladder and so glad you stopped by to visit us. God Bless You, Larry, via all our prayers and your prayers and prayers all you know who pray for you too. (((HUGs))) SEA

SELF MATTERS INCLUDES LARRY
God Bless Larry and God Bless Larry A Lot


L arry has fought and won and will continue to be a winner
A ngels and saints are prayed to bring him renewed strength and hope and confidence
R ecovery of health and spirit and his happiness we hope comes soon
R ushing in with support we pray will come Larry's family and friends
Y es, he's a hard working man who we wish happiness for in the prayers that we send

I have to give you a big thank You for your help! your words helped me a lot!  When I thought all was lost you kept giving me what I needed at the time, I am so Thankful for all your prays and so are my kids!  I still have some bad days but I have more good days I think it is because I had to let go of everything and stop taking the blame for everything, for I know I did what I could to save everything and it was her that did not want to.  once again thank you and may you be blessed by our lord in heaven.  Larry
 
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November 10, 2006, 5:40 pm PST

Hello how are you

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I'm so happy to see you feeling more upbeat. When members vanish I always hope when they return that they have found their smile while gone. That's my prayer too for you and us all, as well as, to keep smiling. I have a prayer candle lit for you and Maliyah and Christina and Alyssa and Taneya and Beth and Michele and DJ and MJ and BZ and Tama and trulymyself and us all. I love when people pop back on to share an answered prayer like you did. Thanks Larry... for your finding hope gives us all renewed hope. Me too. We too. Hugs and prayers, SEA



THE GIFT OF YOU
by: SEA
Inspired by ElizaBeth aka beth93

Did you know that not only is
Today a gift since the present
YOU are a gift being present


Hi I am at home just chillin' and cleaning, I am told for a man I am to clean and neat, but I am told that this is my safe place so I will just keep nice and neat, for it makes me smile and feel good to know I have done one real good job and that is I have learn how to take care of my home and myself and not rely on other at all, for when you put your trust in them and faith they will hurt you when you least need them to.  So as life goes on I have become strong at times and weak at times.  for I know God has a plan, I am told he always does.  I just wish it did not have to hurt so bad.  but life goes on if you will just reach out and let it, I will find the reasion some day I hope but till them I will just live life for life and watch over my kids and grand kids, till the day I am called off this earth and I will not miss this earth for I have spend way to many life times here's as I was told you are sent back to learn or till you get it right, I still am in the learning part but I do not plan on coming back when I am called home at the end and I plan on a long life left here! for I will live here for as long as My children need me and grand kids.  I have made it.  and it is one day at a time, step by step.  But there will always be days like Friday were I did not want to get out of bed, but I did for my boys needed me, so I feel god has put a plan.  and it will be his way now for I have failed doing it my way.  so I will take each day a step by day.  I hope I have made some since.  but if not I feel better.  I do have to say one thing about life, I feel I have been cheated all my life for all I have put forth and I am a good person, for I try to help every one I can. well I better stop now.  may you all be blessed by the grace of god and his son.  Larry
 
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November 11, 2006, 3:35 pm PST

Hello SEA

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I am my best friend now so if every other friend I have walks out on me I will never be alone for I will always be here for me. Well, God's always here too when I take time to notice and even when i don't. Today, though, I was noticing. A beautiful day and when I see such beauty I feel so blessed to be able to see. I just want to say "Thank You Lord for my Eyesight even though not 20/20". Thanks for these glasses that help me see to type here for without them I could not. Well, I guess I could sort of see yet I wouldn't know if I had fingers on right keys by what I was typing or be able to proof. Thanks for this roof over my head and thanks for the cup of coffee that awaits to be made in the morning. Larry, I'm sorry you have had a hard life and like all those of us who have, even though maybe not as hard as yours, we must not wade too long in the tears of the past for we have a life to live today that promises a better tomorrow. Seeing is believing so let's all believe in a happier tomorrow. I say this because, like those who wandered in the wilderness 40 years, one day I realized while lamenting all I lost...I only lost more. While my eyes were closed praying I forgot to believe my prayers would be answered. Many prayers of mine answered I didn't see except in 20/20 hindsight because I left out the main ingredient praying...believing my prayers would be answered. Step out of the pool of tears you've shed and believe in a brighter day. You just might see one like I did today. That's my prayer... God Bless You Larry and thank you for the reply and stopping by to visit us. Tomorrows a new day. I'll see you and everyone there. Hugs and prayers to you and all. SEA
Well today I gote all the work done on my truck, that I have been putting off for not wanting to get out there and do it.  But today I got out of bed and talked to a friend in Africa by IM see is a great friend as you are.  I had a friend that was trying to push me for more than I could give her for I have to heal and I don't think she gets it that a man and a woman can only be friends.  I am not ready for anything yet.  I am still married to Jan, I don't know what the hold up is, I filled out what the courts told me and she had to fill out what she needed to.  I really am confused at time's but I am my best friend now for I don't trust anyone, and it all hit me when a watch and braclet just disaperd and know one know where Jan got them for me! and I charish them.  I am strong and I will make it.  Some times I wish I was a boy back in Wilmer Texas when things were so diffrent and do a lot of thing diffrent.  Larry
 
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December 8, 2006, 11:24 pm PST

Hello SEA

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I'm getting sleepy...sleepy...

I'm glad you are having some unexpected blessings come your way. Sounds like BZ is too. Hopefully, on my ordeal I get some assistance from one of the entities I faxed and IF NOT, hopefully, goes as smoothly as possible. I threw out several fishing lines and now I'm just exercising patience. I'll reel in my lines and try another approach if this isn't successful. It is what it is...I'm just not quite sure how far reaching the parameters of the situation yet. Lynn's ticked about it...not at me... I must be ticked too because I'm craving everything and could sit and mindlessly eat a bag of chips if I didn't catch myself. Dr. Oz said when you crave salt you are stressed and I'm mostly craving salt yet really a bit of everything and that's supposed to mean you are ticked. You know that robotic limbo daze before the other shoe falls or drops. And you get to bottom of bag and then you are depressed because you cannot believe you ate the whole bag. I'm battling the munchies though and got onto glider a bit ago for 30 or so minutes.

Oh well, off to sweet dreams. May God Bless you and us in all our dreams and days. Amen and Amen. (((HUGs to you and All))) SEA
Hi it is I Larry. How are you doing, I hope you are doing well, I will put you in my prays, I have some time to check back in and I have been out doing my own stuff and so on.  But how are you Really doing.  You were so much help with other that kept me going, is there anything special I could pray for you.  Larry.  One you are a specail person and god uses you in his way to save others, two god is with you at all time, just lift your hands and pray and tell the world the lord will win.  three you have USE with you.
 
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December 11, 2006, 7:14 am PST

keeping a good mood and not letting things hold me down

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You are sounding really good, Larry, and that's an answered prayer. Let's see...I love prayers... I know...you could pray all our dreams come true and not only that God will be with each of us and that we will believe He is and that our dreams and prayers ...will... be answered. For I believe the main ingredient in prayers being answered is to remember not only to pray and, also, remember to believe our prayers WILL be answered. Your sounding so much better IS an answered prayer. Great to have you back and thanks for letting me know what I said helped...that was both my hope and prayer. Hooray!!! An answered prayer... Oh, you asked how I'm really doing.... Mostly okay. I've been in pain with my neck (herniated and diffuse disk) and I have another situation and my biggest hurdle is not getting scared about it and just hope for the best. Keeping the faith. I try to remind myself that just because I don't know how a situation is going to turn out is only that and has potential to work out for, "things have a way of working out" and God is bigger than any problem I have. Oh and it'd be nice to have my dreams come true and mainly to keep the faith and never lose hope. Thanks for asking Larry. What's going on in your life? Hugs and prayers and so glad you stopped by to see us. SEA

SELF MATTERS INCLUDES LARRY
God Bless Larry and God Bless Larry A Lot


L arry has fought and won and will continue to be a winner
A ngels and saints are prayed to bring him renewed strength and hope and confidence
R ecovery of health and spirit and his happiness we hope comes soon
R ushing in with support we pray will come Larry's family and friends
Y es, he's a hard working man who we wish happiness for in the prayers that we send

Well I have got to the piont were I emailed Jan and asked her if she was real sure she wanted to end our marriage, and got no respnce, I found out she had this whole thing planed and she lied to me about working things out six months to a year and I found out that she put all the blame on me and I was taking it.  I stopped taking it and told her no more lie's no more blame, that I am a very good man and a very good provider and she is the one that needs help.  I got my help.  So I sent off the paper work certifide to her with a return slip.  I am done, I can not take the game and have all this wait on my heart for all it was doing was making me very sick, and pushing me to think of things I had not thought of since the 90's.  But I am strong and I will win, with all my friends like you and one day I will find the women that will Love me for me and understand me for me.  I am very dedicatede to the ones I love and I love to spend time with them.  God will lead me there one day.  If not he will make sure I am happy.  May you be Blessed.  I have a great prayer line for you 800-206-9277 I hope I am not braking any rules but I feel this could help you with the other thing.  Many hugs and many prayers for you and all.  Larry.  Please don't mind the spelling, little sleep.
 

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