I have never been on a message board before, I guess you can say this is unchartered territory for me. I feel lost within myself. I recently acknowledge to myself that I made such a stupid mistake so many years ago and I want to fix it but do not know how. Years ago I got married to a wonderful man who I still love passionately, but was not my controlling mom's first pick for me. My husband and my mom are two pinnacle people in my life and it kills me that they are are civil to each other but that their is an invisible wall between them.
When I married my husband I made a dumb decision to put myself on the back burner and live to make these two pinnacle people happy. I have through the years been able to make some of my husbands life long dreams come true. I have also been able to do the same for my mom. And as I was doing this a piece of me died inside every time. I woke last week and looked myself in the mirror, "REALLY LOOKED" and I did not know who was the person looking back at me. I had become my own stranger.
I do not know how to stop being a shell of a person and start being a person. I do not know how to start making my dreams come true...I am starting to think I have no dreams anymore.
Is their anyone out their that can help me start putting myself back together?
