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May 20, 2006, 12:42 am PDT

manic depression

i've had depression all my life, i've got many disorders but the worse ones are, manic depression-- social disorder-- violent temper-- violent mood swings & sucidal, i live alone with my animals & spirits, i'm afriad if i'm around alot of people i'm gonna hurt someone so i keep to myself. i've been hurt too many times by the human race, i am a loner, i may not be happy but i won't get hurt.  colt_66
 
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May 21, 2006, 9:21 pm PDT

depression

to whom it may concern: i've got several disorders but my main ones are social, violent mood swings & temper, sucidal & the human race,  i'm afraid if i get around a lot of people i'm gonna hurt some one, i've been molested & raped when i was growing up i dont trust people anymore specially if they have a badge on.  any advise u can give me wood be helpful, the only one getting hurt is me, some days are bloody, i'm in cousling now but it dont seem to be helping.   colt45
 
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May 22, 2006, 6:43 pm PDT

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Quote From: love2help

 Have you been on this message board before?  It's a wonderful board.  Allot more people come on during the day.  : )
I'm sorry for what you had to go through growing up.  I too was molested when little.  The pain will always be there no matter how much counseling we get.  You just need to learn how to deal with it in a healthier way.  Why is counseling not helping?  Maybe you should find another counselor.  Sometimes you have to search for the right counselor for yourself.  Someone you can trust and open up to.  Are you on meds?  Maybe that would help some too.
Don't give up ok?  You just need to do a little searching and find a good counslor.  That's the first step.   They can give you better advise than I could and help you find ways to heal from your past.
What do you do with your time?  Work? Hobbies? Children? I know for myself, keeping busy is the best way for me to deal with my depression. 
Keep chatting with us ok?  Nice to meet you!
Hugs,
Michele


  to whom it may concern: this is my 3nd counsler, and i'm on meds but now all i want to do is sleep, i cant really do much of anything anymore cause of a back injury, but that fer the input anyway.   colt
 
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May 29, 2006, 2:08 am PDT

why am I still here

what have I've been put on this earth fer, I've tried to make it in this human race but it's not working, I had to have my gall bladder removed due to bad pains but the severe pain that has replaced it ain't worth it anymore. how much longer am I to suffer?  my depression is in full swing now & my emotions are out of wack, I don't know if I want to hold on anymore. this life just ain't worth all this pain.  colt66
 
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May 29, 2006, 1:09 pm PDT

RE: to my other reply

I had my gall bladder out on may 11th 2006, but I'm now taking up to 3 (7.5) lortabs  instead of the 1/2 of a (5.5) lortab I was taking before the surgery. I shouldn't be having this extreme pain, so I guess I'll be swallowing another camera and hope they can find the problem this time before I don't have any internal orgins left.  colt66
 
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May 29, 2006, 6:27 pm PDT

what is a Lortab?

A lortab is a strong pain pill,  and I've been doing a lot of sleeping or just sitting around, I'll see the doc tomorrow about this pain, I didn't realize that there was so many people out there who cared about a total stranger,  Thanks to ya all   colt66
 
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May 29, 2006, 6:37 pm PDT

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HELP!  This is my first time here, but I am hoping some one can help.  I have been dating the same guy now for almost 6 years.  The problem is the way he was raised and how I was raised.  And between the 2 of us we have 3 kids at home.  He was raised VERY STRICK CATHOLIC and i was raised you do what, when you want, (grant it that way isn't right ).  But i turn out ok.  We were doing real well until about a year ago.  Now his dad wants to bud in.  Not only that I LOVE to volunteer at school PTO, reading in the library, helping needy kids with homework, go on feild trips, but when i do i get yelled at when i come home.  I want our relationship to work, but i am torn, do i sacrifice being in my kids life at school? so i am not alone, do i tell him off,  WHAT TO DO?  please help. 
Tell his dad to butt out, it's between you & your boyfriend only, try to sit down & come to a compermice between the 2 of you. If he loves you then he should be willing to support you in the things you like to do & you should support him in the things he likes to do, it's the only way to be now days. try it and see what happens, I've been down that road many times myself.   colt66
 
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May 30, 2006, 1:49 am PDT

got milk

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HELP!  This is my first time here, but I am hoping some one can help.  I have been dating the same guy now for almost 6 years.  The problem is the way he was raised and how I was raised.  And between the 2 of us we have 3 kids at home.  He was raised VERY STRICK CATHOLIC and i was raised you do what, when you want, (grant it that way isn't right ).  But i turn out ok.  We were doing real well until about a year ago.  Now his dad wants to bud in.  Not only that I LOVE to volunteer at school PTO, reading in the library, helping needy kids with homework, go on feild trips, but when i do i get yelled at when i come home.  I want our relationship to work, but i am torn, do i sacrifice being in my kids life at school? so i am not alone, do i tell him off,  WHAT TO DO?  please help. 
you're welcome hope things work out fer the best.   colt66
 
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May 30, 2006, 7:06 pm PDT

doc's appointment

It's not good news, I have to go back into surgery, my doc says that I have a lopoma, which is fat cells that have formed into hard balls, he will have to scrap them out, I'm hoping it turns out to be the reason I'm having this stupid pain.  And after I get this taken cared of I'm probly looking at knee surgery since I injuried my knee 2yrs ago & it's not getting better. at this point I might as well move into the hospital after all I've been spending enough time in there.   All of these health problems are depressing me even more, I wish it would all go away.  colt66 

 
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May 31, 2006, 4:13 pm PDT

Surgery

I go in on the 22nd of june fer the 1st surgery, & no I don't like the hospital's food it's real bad LOL.  I just hope I don't have to spend the nite in there, I have a kitten that needs a shot 2 times a day, so I have to be home. As fer getting my relationship back, I don't have one, & probably won't get one fer several yrs.   It's bad enough to deal with the surgeries but my counsler is talking about puting me on suicide watch. I can't deal with the problems in my life much anymore.   It's hard enough just fer me to get out of bed some days, now I have to worry about the surgeries. It's getting to be too much fer me.  colt66
 

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