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September 26, 2008, 6:48 am PDT

You are not alone

Quote From: kat143katn

I was just diagnosed with PPD last week. I was so embarressed to tell my Dr. when i had to get another Pap smear that i waited until my daughter was 4 months. I ended up calling my doctors office in tears. I started meds and im gonna start counselling next week. I hope i can get better soon but i feel like i am so alone. I'm only 19 and all of my friends are off at college so i have no one to talk to or help. I am hoping to find some friends that have kids around my daughters age but i have no idea on how to go about finding them.
I just wanted to write to you to tell you a lot of mothers feel this way.  I'm 25, married and have a 4 month old son and from time to time it's all I can do to get through the day.  I have had days where all I do is sit with my son and cry because it's so overwhelming, and sometimes I just don't know what to do with him.  Nothing will make him happy some days.  The loss of sleep is a huge contributor to this too.  I feel guilty about everything, like I feel my son deserves a better mom but then the next thought is "I'm a good mom, he's happy"  It is definitely THE toughest job in the world.  My sister in law had PPD with her first son,and she got through it and had another baby boy and no PPD.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel.  You will get through this.  If you want to find other moms with kids, try your local YMCA or Library, they usually have activities for moms and babies.  But if you ever feel like venting ( like ALL mothers need to) send me an email, I'll listen! take care!
 
September 26, 2008, 10:17 am PDT

All Alone

There seems to be no end to my negative thoughts about myself.  I am constantly going over and over conversations I've had with people that I come away from thinking that I said the wrong thing or they must think I'm stupid. I've had people put me down all of my life and now it is starting to affect my marriage.  I'm always asking my husband if he's having an affair or if he still loves me or does he still think I'm attractive (7 years and a baby later) I don't know how to stop and just accept that he loves me and I deserve to be loved.  I miss my confidence that I had when I was single. I do not have intrests or many friends that I still talk to. everything I start, I quit. If there is any advice out there, I'm all ears.
 
September 29, 2008, 8:43 am PDT

Thanks Brenda

Quote From: blgspc

Welcome!

 

My first question to you would be: What is the VERY worst thing that could happen if you did say the wrong thing or if they did think you were stupid?

Would the Sun not rise in the morning? Would the world suddenly stop or the oceans dry up? What catastrophe(s) would result from your belief that you had said the wrong thing or your belief that others would think you were stupid?

You say, Ive had people put me down all of my life.. Im thinking, that in your head, right now, you are your worst enemy. I believe that you condemn yourself before others have the opportunity. What good is working and fretting constantly about pleasing other people if you are constantly MISERABLE?

Your issue sounds less about other people and more about yourself. You dont and can not control what other people think or do. You are the only person you can control. 

It also sounds, to me, like you may have become isolated.

Why are you quitting everything that you start?

 

Just Some Thoughts,

Brenda

I guess it wouldn't be the end of the world if not everyone liked me. The reason why I quit everything I start is because a lot of the time it's all I can do to get out of bed let alone get out of the house.   The reason I do get out of bed is my son, who is 4 months old.  I have Dr.Phil's book so I'm going to give that a shot. thanks for your support!
 
September 29, 2008, 8:46 am PDT

Hi Mary

Quote From: mezneil

Welcome to the board,

 

If you don't mind me asking:

 

How old is baby? and also... How long have you felt this way?

 

Sometimes the ups and downs of life can make things seem very hard and lonely, some are harder to deal with than others...  You are not alone even though you feel that way. There are many sources of help.  I hope you stay to talk this through here.  This is a good place to sort out you thoughts and feelings.

 

Mary DownUnder

My baby is 4months old, and I have felt this way for as long as I can remember.  This is a great place to get my feelings out there, I feel like I'm taking a step in the right direction.  Thanks for your support.
 
September 29, 2008, 8:49 am PDT

Thanks

Quote From: marcia52

Back in 2003, I realized that I was really doubting everything about me ... my work, relationships, me!

When I picked up SELF MATTERS I was able to learn cognitive therapy and begin the healing process. It's a wonderful tool to teach you how to listen to what you are saying and challenge yourself.  I highly recommend it.  If you are in therapy, you can ask them to teach you it.  It's not hard.
I went and got Dr.Phil's book so I'm going to give that a try.  I'm happy to hear it worked for you, it gives me hope!
 
October 3, 2008, 1:14 pm PDT

Thank you for your support

Quote From: marcia52

When you're reading Self Matters -- just read it as a book .. do 1-2 of the exercises and give yourself permission to move on. Chapter 4 has stopped more people because they get lost in their pain / past.  Dr. Phil is teaching you cognitive therapy which really does work. I got derailed the 1st time I read the book ... never made it past Chap 4 ... on the 2nd reading I read it like a book and then went back and did the exercises knowing what the entire progress was about.  It really helped me.

Linda (Ritehere) will also be there for you as you read the book.

And remember, we don't know you .. you can tell your secrets / your thoughts here and no one will know who you are .. it's really liberating when you can open yourself up and express what's really in your heart.
I've made it to the part where you have to circle the qualities you think you have and then the ones you want to have.  I found that very hard to do and sad to see what I consider myself to be, or not to be (couldn't help myself  :) I went to my Dr.'s today and told her how I was feeling, considering I have a 4 month old she said the lack of sleep is not helping my feeling overwhelmed.  I know that is part of my mood these days.  I wake up in the night with my son and stand by his crib and cry.  I just think "I can't handle this, I don't know what made me think I could handle a child, I can't even handle myself some days"  I love him more than anything in the world and just want the best for him. just had to get that off my chest.
 

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