Messages By: eden777

I grew up in a house hold where everybody was compared to the oldest one who seemed to be the smartest and prettiest of us all and the one who seemed to be most successful out of all of us.  Everyone accept for her has had to battle through our issues.  My brother and I who have had our battles with addiction.  Two of my sisters including myself have had to work through anxiety issues.  This was a pretty hard childhood for us all being raised by an alcoholic and abusive father and a mother who passed away when we were all very young.  It's crazy but I have worked through a lot.  I can understand Victoria because I was there.   

The reason why my oldest sister seemed to be most successful and most confident within herself out of all of us is because she has had most of what we have all needed.  She's had a loving father who has built her up but the rest of us just can't seem to measure up. 

I had to tell myself that to feel good I needed to look good but what was most important was how I felt about myself.  I needed a serious boost of self confidence.  I went through a lot changes over the years while trying to find the person that I am.  In the little box where we share a little bit about who we are I mentioned that I believe in absolute truth.  Here it is...we are all God's children created in His image.   Where do I find my self worth and where do I start to restore my dignity?  It's in God.  And this is what I am finding to be true.  The more I like myself, the more this showes in my appearance.  It has been a very long but rewarding journey of mine.   

The true beuty from within is what I am talking about.  

It is sad to watch children fall through the cracks...  

That said and done it's great to see that at least the mother is willing to get some help.  It's a very long and painful journey to come to realize the error in all your ways.  It is also a very humbling experience for this woman to go on National Television and to open herself up in the way she had.  I see this as a great start for this family.  

I have talked about having a father who was an abusive alcoholic father.  I was also sexualy molested.  As a result my perceived truth on the world around me influenced my behaviors which in turn affected where I placed my identity.     

On the show was a little boy whose 4 with gender identity issues.  This is where it's at with all who are gay or lesbian.  Gender Identity confusion.   

I am not saying I was gay and now I am not but what I am saying is this.   

I believe in the healing power of God and I have seen it in my own life.  This does not mean that I don't still struggle through life and this issue here.  This is never a gay or not gay issue but rather it goes deeper then that.   

Satan would realy love us to believe that change is not possable but change in inevitable to all who come to faith in Christ.  It's just not up to us to say what changes and when.  I have been on this healing journey for a long time and it's just a crazy time but the one thing I will never regret is turning my life over to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  One decision I will never regret no matter how difficult or how painful is surrendering my sexuality into the hands of the one who is the creator of human sexuality.  And in surrendering my life over to God He re-directs my life and places back together the fragmented bits of my life.     

I do believe in absolute truth and this is that we were created in the image of God male and female and together God designed for this union to become one.  In no other example do we find in full the image of God.   

David said there are thousands of people who at one time lived a gay lifestyle and then came out of it. This is true!   

The bible says that it is the kindness of the Lord that leads people to repentance church:)   

And the bible also says,  "And that is what some of you were..."   

If you believe in what the bible says is true this is what the bible says, some of you were homosexual offenders but you have been washed, sanctified and justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God,"  1Cor 6:11   

God is good   

as He says,   

"My grace is sufficient for my power is made perfect in weakness,"   

I will never judge a person for being different than me or believing different but I strongly believe in absolute truth.  Jesus never threw the stone at the woman but He did say, "go and sin no more,"     

He did call the religious leaders of that day, "you brude of vipors, white washed tombs," They looked clean on the outside but they were just as dirty as any sinner out there.  He calls them the walking dead.     

 he bible says, "why concern yourself with the sliver in your neighbours eye before dealing with the log in your own eye," (loose translation)   

I do believe in a right way to live life and I do believe that morals is part of that right way to live.  I don't believe that we can pick our battles in life.  At least I didn't choose my battles.  I do however have a great God who understand why I have the battles I do in life and through Him I have the power to walk free from addiction and walk free from homosexuality.  People like me are not supposed to exist...but people like me do exist.  How do we explain those who have gone on to experience "complete healing"? One can argue whether or not living a gay lifestyle is moraly right or wrong but one can never argue against a person's testimony of healing and triumphant victory.   

This is what I love to hear.  You speak the truth in love and what have you?  There is not one person so far that they cannot be reached with the gospal of Jesus Christ.  We are called to work out our salvation.  We are called to make right choices in life.  My pastor says quite often that God is always described as one who enables and empowers.  He never said that life would be fair and He never said that life would be easy.    

Love will always win anybody out of hell.  I wish that all people in the church were to have this view right here.  The message of the bible is always to come as you are.  I came to God as one who is gay but then God who had knit me together in my mother's womb enabled me to embrace who He created me to be.    

God did not create robots but instead He created people that would have the freedom to choose to worship Him or not.   

Adam and Eve had one stinken rule and they blew it!   

We all have the freedom to make right choices and God is not going to force us to make that choice but He has given us guidence through His word.  Sometimes we still don't get it.   

Love God with all your heart and love your neighbour as yourself.   

Ignorance feeds into fear and the reason why a lot of Christian's have a hard time with this issue is because they realy don't know how to respond to those they truly love.   

Jesus loved the woman caught in adultry but he didn't approve of her choices that she had made in her life.  His response to her was, "go and sin no more," that is just as equaly important to note as the fact that He never threw the stone.     

Righteousness = right choice(ness)   

We at times don't make the right choice and that's unfortunate.    

This only proves how much we need a savior.   

Bono from U2 once said in an interview with the Rolling Stone magazine,  "I hesitate to tell people that I am a Christian because my life wouldn't be a good representation of what Christianity is all about," That wasn't word for word but that is essentialy what his message was.   

We simply shouldn't look to people who are prone to failure and judge God by the works of mere man.     

We aught to look at His creation throughout this universe, things seen and things unseen and know how great our God truly is.   

I could very well be that annoying family member.  

But that is what makes me so lovable:)