My name is Gillian, i am 24 and have had anorexia for 13years. I live in the UK where treatment centres are few aand far between. Last year i was given 3 days to live my weight flling to 3 st 7lbs. I havent eaten for 3years i am fed only by naso gastric tube, i cannot put anything in my mouth not even my meds. I have been in and out of psychiatric wards most my life, being sectioned (put in hopspital against my will) restrained (held down by members of staff) force fed. The list is endless. Right now i am 65lbs i am suffering from low potassium, low BP, seizures. I cannot get funding for treeatment, and i have but given up on ever being better. I know i am going to die, but i cannot see a way out of this, i really have tried countless amounts of times but never been able to do it.
Its now only a waiting game to see how long anorexia will keep me here. I cant take much more and death seems like the only option. Im not even scared. I feel peace when i think of death,it will be my only freedom.
Ballerina_gil
