Messages By: chantel2

Quote From: blackcatmerc

The only reason I am posting is because of the possibility that Dr. Phil may use this topic to showcase one of his TV 'topics'.  I have HSV I, HSV 2, and HPV.  I consider myself a 3 time loser.  I am a handsome man, 50 years old, and look like a much younger man (thanks to my Mom's genes).  I'm intelligent, hard working and have recently been described as a 'scary smart' man.  In reality, as I get older, I see myself as a man destined to live my life alone.  I don't want to 'settle' for a woman that doesn't meet my standards; I need to have chemistry and want a woman who is emotionally secure/available, intelligent (relative), mature, and has some of the same interests.  An independant woman does not scare me; it is a rather enduring quality.  I have tried some of the popular dating sites with disparaging results.  The statistics indicate  that around 1 in 4 women are afflicted with HSV; I think I've met every woman who falls out of the bell curve.  I'm not looking for the 'perfect' woman as dictated by unrealistic social norms.  Large, small, in-between - don't really care.  Too many people mis-represent themselves and I am disappointed because I feel people should be honest - there needs to be an initial attraction in order for any relationship to move forward.  At any rate, I feel like a leper at times.  If the national statistics are accurate, more than 80% of the population infected with HSV (and HPV for that matter) don't know they have it, it is no wonder I have such difficulty meeting a woman that will accept me.  My STDs don't define me as a person of quality; it is a 'prejudice' that I can't seem to overcome.  I have seen a counselor for years and have made rather incredible progress in regards to some of my past behavior (another topic).  I'm resolved that I will spend the rest of my life alone and, at some point, will accept this as fact.  In the meantime, I keep hoping....