Messages By: chardonnaykj

dear didntknow, sorry about the loss of your husband. My mom died 2 months ago. Even though we knew she only had 4 months it is still tough. I have a secret though. If you pray for your loved one to visit you in your dreams, they will. It doesn't always work but it has 4 times. I got to see my mom's face and she showed me heaven. It was one big party. The best part..everyone looks great..no sickness..just happy and singing. When I really miss her I ask her and she comes to me. I bet it would work for you too.

Also did you know that whenever you see a special sunset, sunrise, or beautiful sky that is your loved one saying hello. That is why sometimes we don't notice the sky and then other times we see the most wonderful picture.  Someone sent that sky to you. See I can't paint or draw and so I decided that when you get to heaven all the un-artist get to paint beautiful skies. Good luck to you. and Take Care.....by the way I hope you have met some new friends or have tried to re-connect with the old ones.. 

For me I would just explode. The counter in the kitchen would be full of stuff and i would just let go. throw it all on the floor becausei was so frustrated i couldn't keep up the house like I did before I was pregnant. Also, I did not want to leave my bed, didn't care if I showered, ate or did much of anything. The exploding happened right before my periods. but several times driving I would just say to myself, I think I'll just drive off the edge of the freeway. Of course in my mind I was thinking right after that, I want to be the one to raise my daughter. I can't just leave her without a mom. Those were the thoughts that made me talk to my mom and to seek professional help. A good dr. will give you a test to take on your emotions and feeling and will also talk to you before ever giving meds. He will want to talk to your husband and get a feel for u and your needs. He should not just give you meds without a though(sp) exam. of that i am certain You don't want any chemical messing anything that does not need fixing.... Sorry so long...but so v ery important to your health.