My husband and I have been married for 21 years. We have 2 Kids. They are grown almost out of school. Betcha Just feel that marriage isnt improving for us. I m fearful whats going to happened if this is for real. My husband too is very verrbally abusive of anything if it was my way do it or be strong firm and show meant it or else. He makes me feel awful, worthless, unhappy, and he thinks I cannot do anything all my self if was happening to be living apart. I guess its other way around aint me its him... He will be all alone. Aniexty Panic and not know what to do with himself if alone. Me can be ok but worse part is being hearing impaired cannot hear things around me isnt very easy job for me. I have device for it its not yet to set up. ALso have couple of pets who meant alot to me feel safe. About the house cleaning just like you Mac I cannot do anything around the house when he s around here because it gives me so restless and too much distracted. There are alot of clutters of course needs to tidy up. Me do all . Of course its all my stuff not his. My house is belong to me but he pay mortage thats the nightmare to make a move> Threats me for him to leave I have to do it all alone pay mortage myself. Me well I do paid all the house bills more than he does. He spend like crazy some on food but doesnt cooperative and make satisified with money to spend. He will find excuse for me to spend money for pets food more than have us to eat. Get lost.. I spend more than was. I hoped to have this house just for me for now for while get back on my feet but I hate to be around this town that small can see and knowing people around cannot run away to avoid its not like city. Hes not working o k. he s On Compensation even I aint work just part time when there is on call. I m the ones put money out all the time. I begging him nag him to ask him if he wants out of marriage he does. Still here still with him come on.. BOOT HIM. I dont want to lived on welfare whats the point they are pain in the azzz in canada.. not worth it. I start take medication because of his neice attack me now too much money to spend on medication forget it not worth it. I m still in couselling he start to joined me but he said limited 3 to 6 months. I refused acceptable I rather to refresh year 2006. I hang on to him damn me i made mistake it was too much for me not thinking clear. When there is comes to arguement about daughter s behavior or daughter to do it to me or both dont get along I get double pills that no one knows to suidal. I hate to wake up every day now. My friends are putting my head to together. I m fighting but with pets I have I dont want to lose e m all. Thats the main charactor and worries what will happened to them. I Hoped he let me have em all. I wished to joined Dr. Phil show and face it come home to refresh my memories. IT can make me gain more more when there is stress in me. We should get advised from others .... Help us..
Next week will see my cousellor should I say last warning more verball he s gone at the end of the month. I say that word let me see if i I did make actions. Keep in post with me would work together.
