It is so easy to remember the horrific things that have happened in our lives. Who tries to remember the good? I have often thought of writing a book about all the painful situations I bee in. This was the first, but not the last attempt to commit suicide. A child is fragile and should be treated as such. Here's my story...
...On my sixteenth birthday I came home from school expecting a birthday party and a loving day just for me. That didn't happen. Even though there was always some turmoil happening in our house; I tried to stay in good faith.
As I was saying, I came home from school and I quickly discovered my day was not my day anymore. My mother was drunk, and stole my birthday to keep for herself.
My dad was still at work so I didn't have anyone to protect me or console in. My level of energy dropped drastically. I left our house and walked toward the only friend I thought I had. Before I got to her house I had to cross a highway. As I crossed the highway thoughts of suicide jumped through my head. I cried, and I cried and finally I came to the conclusion my life wasn't worth living anymore. I jumped in front of a semi trailer. He swerved and missed me causing havic in the freeway. Fortunately A highway patrolman seen me and picked me up, then took me home.
By this time my dad was home and he took me to the side and tried to comfort me. I was so deep into depression by this time nothing could sooth my emotions. As soon as I was alone I tried to stab myself in the gut. My dad walked in as the knife headed downward stepping into the path of the knife and catching my arms. He hugged me and realized the pain I was in. He never brough that incident up ever again after it happened. This horror story of my life along with plenty others haunt me to this very day. My belief in God and the faith I place in him along with the love for my wife and children keep me alive. I still fight the depression with no medication. I am stronger than any depression because God has shown me peace.
I know I don't have the worst story, but I know I have the best ending...LIFE.
-olschoolshep
