Messages By: jennajones

I had the gastric bypass surgery in 2000.  I used to weigh close to 270 and went down to 170 and kept most of it off.  I have recently developed a bad habit. I thought I had my life under control. I was ready to lose weight at the time. I did it! I had a lot of very recent tragedies happen all at once that threw me off. I am drinking 3-6 alcoholic drinks 3-5X weekly at night time.  I don't like myself. I'm afraid to tell anyone. I am afraid for my children, for my husband and ultimately for myself. I am so ashamed I can barely write this email. I can't see the screen real well through the tears. I wish I had the courage to come forward and tell someone that could help me. I could lose my job if anyone found out. My job is very "image" oriented.  Even though I never drink and drive or drink alone I cannot take this anymore. I am a fraud. I am lonely and I am tired of my bad coping skill. Any words of encouragement are welcome. gastricbypassqueen@yahoo.com

Thanks to everyone that posted and emailed me to bring comfort.  I will do my best to get as much help and accountability as possible.  Although I am not chemically dependent I do not want to get to that point.  Everyone that posted and emailed has great nuggets of truth that I will keep with me as I grieve my losses.  I can't begin to say all the tragic things that have happened in the past year but I am ready to face them.  I am truly blessed with a great family and marriage and I want to hold on to them as long as I can.  Thanks again for all of your support.  gastricbypassqueen@yahoo.com