Messages By: baby_cj2003

I'm 32 5'5 and as of yesterday i weighed 350lbs After i turned 16 i started gaining and couldn't control it i have dieted all my life and yet it never has helped As of last April i became disabled due to an injury at work I fell on some ice (I was a Certified Nurses Aide) I tore the Miniscis Disk in my left knee and required immediate surgery After the surgery i had no feeling or movement in 3 of my toes and i was unable to walk or sit in a chair for long My fiance waited on me hand and foot bathed me and everything while i was on bed rest My leg was so swelling i couldn't do anything During my checkup with the surgeon i was sent to the hospital for a ultrasound of my knee and was then admitted into the hospital for a week because i had a blood clot on my knee They started me on blood thinners and after a week i was sent home still unable to walk and do things for myself A week went by and i was no better but getting worse I was rushed back to the hospital and was told i had yet another blood clot on top of the other one A specialist was then given my case and allot of blood work was taking looking for the reason why i had developed the clots in the first place I had a clot years ago when i was 20 and had a miscarriage and was put on birth control to soon Then started on  blood thinners for a year It was located in my opposite leg after But they knew that wasn't the reason for this set of clots I spent another week in the hospital and finally came home A month later i was relieved of my job It couldn't be held for me any longer I was receiving workers compensation After a month i went to see the specialist to find out what he had learned from the blood work and it wasn't good news I had tested positive for Lupus Anticoagulant Which meant my blood clots and my body think its got to fight off its own cells and antibodies And I'm at high risk for developing full blown Lupus as i get older So now I'm disabled because the damage to my leg from the clots is so severe it cant be rehabilitated and i now recieve SSI/SSD I cant work ever again I cant walk farther than a block I cant sit in a chair longer than 2 hours a day I cant lift more than 15lbs and i have gained an extra 100lbs since it all happened I am unable to do allot of the things i used to do that i loved I'm a outdoorsy person and yet i cant go camping because i wouldn't be able to sleep on the ground let alone get on the ground to sleep I cant go fishing because i cant sit there long enough to catch anything I'm in serious need of some help with my weight before it kills me I know if i have the surgery and i start to lose some weight i will be able to do more than i can now i would be able to possibly walk farther or sit without my leg swelling up or even just take a fishing trip with my Fiance and enjoy a day outside our apartment His family lives in Baltimore MD and we have visited but i have yet to see the ocean because its all walking and i cant do it We are getting married this August 18th 2007 and I'm happy to be able to walk enough to make it down the isle But i wish i could look allot better than i do Just for that one day After all he has been thru with me and all he has done and still does for me It would be the greatest thing in the world for me to give him at least that first dance at the reception I'm speaking to my family Dr about options and I'm looking into joining the YMCA near us and I'm going to try and do what i can to lose some weight myself but its extremely hard when i am disabled in this way I wish i could have a fairy godmother and make it happen

I'm 32 5'5 and as of yesterday i weighed 350lbs After i turned 16 i started gaining and couldn't control it i have dieted all my life and yet it never has helped As of last April i became disabled due to an injury at work I fell on some ice (I was a Certified Nurses Aide) I tore the Miniscis Disk in my left knee and required immediate surgery After the surgery i had no feeling or movement in 3 of my toes and i was unable to walk or sit in a chair for long My fiance waited on me hand and foot bathed me and everything while i was on bed rest My leg was so swelling i couldn't do anything During my checkup with the surgeon i was sent to the hospital for a ultrasound of my knee and was then admitted into the hospital for a week because i had a blood clot on my knee They started me on blood thinners and after a week i was sent home still unable to walk and do things for myself A week went by and i was no better but getting worse I was rushed back to the hospital and was told i had yet another blood clot on top of the other one A specialist was then given my case and allot of blood work was taking looking for the reason why i had developed the clots in the first place I had a clot years ago when i was 20 and had a miscarriage and was put on birth control to soon Then started on  blood thinners for a year It was located in my opposite leg after But they knew that wasn't the reason for this set of clots I spent another week in the hospital and finally came home A month later i was relieved of my job It couldn't be held for me any longer I was receiving workers compensation After a month i went to see the specialist to find out what he had learned from the blood work and it wasn't good news I had tested positive for Lupus Anticoagulant Which meant my blood clots and my body think its got to fight off its own cells and antibodies And I'm at high risk for developing full blown Lupus as i get older So now I'm disabled because the damage to my leg from the clots is so severe it cant be rehabilitated and i now recieve SSI/SSD I cant work ever again I cant walk farther than a block I cant sit in a chair longer than 2 hours a day I cant lift more than 15lbs and i have gained an extra 100lbs since it all happened I am unable to do allot of the things i used to do that i loved I'm a outdoorsy person and yet i cant go camping because i wouldn't be able to sleep on the ground let alone get on the ground to sleep I cant go fishing because i cant sit there long enough to catch anything I'm in serious need of some help with my weight before it kills me I know if i have the surgery and i start to lose some weight i will be able to do more than i can now i would be able to possibly walk farther or sit without my leg swelling up or even just take a fishing trip with my Fiance and enjoy a day outside our apartment His family lives in Baltimore MD and we have visited but i have yet to see the ocean because its all walking and i cant do it We are getting married this August 18th 2007 and I'm happy to be able to walk enough to make it down the isle But i wish i could look allot better than i do Just for that one day After all he has been thru with me and all he has done and still does for me It would be the greatest thing in the world for me to give him at least that first dance at the reception I'm speaking to my family Dr about options and I'm looking into joining the YMCA near us and I'm going to try and do what i can to lose some weight myself but its extremely hard when i am disabled in this way I wish i could have a fairy godmother and make it happen