Messages By: bible12

Quote From: webcat1168

I have been cutting and hurting myself for quite a fews now.  I was very happy at one time in my life, but I feel like I snapped.  I'm extremely exhausted of holding everything in and now (and I don't know why) but I started cutting myself.  The sad part about it is it's getting easier and easier and I'm starting to believe that my knife is my closest friend.  I have been on (and am still on) anxiety medicine and depression medicine, but it's not working.  I've been extremely sad and I feel that my world is spinning all around me out of control.  On top of that I've been diagnosed with some form of vertigo, which has been getting worse with each passing day.  I have an MRI scheduled soon, and as much as I don't want the results to show anything abnormal at the same time I do so that the doctors can fix this.  Honestly I am so exhausted from all the years of holding everything in from trying to please my parents to working so hard at wor.  I've been depressed before but never like this so I don't know what is happening.  I would do anything to feel good again but lately - I just don't want to live anymore.