Messages By: vanessahates

SOMETIMES LIFE IS SO HARD TO DEAL WITH YOUR EMOTIONS AFFECT THE WAY YOU VEIW LIFE I CANT HELP FEELING SO ANGRY INSIDE I FEEL AS IF NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND THE WAY IM FEELING IT SEEMS AS HARD AS I TRY TO EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL I CANT BRING MY SELF TO EXPLAIN EXACTLY HOW I FEEL AND KEEPING IT INSIDE ONLY SEEMS TO MAKE THINGS WORSE THE LONGER I HOLD IT IN I OFTEN FIND MYSELF ON A SHORT TEMPER I CANT CONTROLL MY ANGER AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS IM GOING INSAIN OR THAT’S HOW I FEEL I FEEL LIKE IM WATING TO GO OFF I FEAR THAT I MIGHT HURT SOMEONE AND NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO KEEP MY HATRED INSIDE IT SEEMS TO FIND ITS WAY OUT IS IT MY FAULT AM I THE CAUSE OF MY MISSERIE.

I ALWAYS THOUGH THAT I WOULD HAVE SOMEONE TO CONFORT ME WHEN I NEEDED HIM TOO I THOUGHT THAT I WOULD HAVE SOMEONE TAKE CARE OF ME .

I KNOW HES TRYING BUT IT SIMPLY JUST NOT ENOUGH I WANT TO BE TOLD THAT HE LOVES ME WITH OUT ME HAVING TO TELL HIM FIRST I WISH WHEN I WAS CRYING OR HE NEW THAT HE DID SOMETHING THAT HURTS HE WOULD CONFORT ME I WISH HE WOULD HOLD ME AND KISS ME WITH OUT HAVING TO BE TOLD I FEEL AS IF IM NOT WANTED I FEEL LIKE HES OBLEGATED TO BE WITH ME HE SHOULDN’T FEEL LIKE BEING WITH ME IS LIKE A JOB AT TIMES I FEEL LIKE HES FORCED TO LOVE ME .

IM HURTING IN SIDE AND NOBODY KNOWS IT BUT ME IM NOT HAPPY WITH THE WAY TINGS ARE GOING I FEEL ALONE IN THIS WORLD AND MAYBE I WOULD BE BETTER OFF DEAD BUT FOR MY SON I KEEP MY SELF ALIVE AND UNTILL HES OLD ENOUGH AND DON’T HAVE TO DEPEND ON ANY ONE . THEN I WILL LEAVE THIS GOD OFFLE WORLD THAT HAS NOTHING BUT HATRED AND MISSERY IN THIS PLACE HOW CAN ANYONE ENJOY LIFE HEAR IM IN HELL AND IT SIMPLY CANT GET WORSE I HAVE NO ONE BUT MY SELF AND ITS HARD I HATE LIFE I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN AND I CANT GO ON I DON’T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH LIFE AND IT EASER FOR ME TO GIVE UP I HAT EVERY ONE AND I CANT HELP IT I HATE MYSELF I HAT EVEYONE WHO DONE ME WRONG I HATE EVERONE WHO SAID THEIR, THERE FOR ME BUT WASN’T AROUND .