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April 8, 2008, 2:15 pm PDT
eternally lost in tn
The stories about spouses tore me up. I am a 38 year old woman who was a chubby child and the brunt of much family torture growing up. When I was in middle school they (uncles,brothers,cousins and such) called me chub minnow. As a teenager they named a cow after me. I always heard from my dad--why cant you be more like such and such. I have never lived up to what he wanted me to be and as a result you would have to look far and wide to find a more difunctional person than me. I have ocd and I feel like I am lacking as aperson because of all the old garbage I carry. I obsessively clean my house as my way of protecting my girls from lifes ugliness. I am also overprotective and will attack anyone I feel is disrespecting them like I was. Some people think its just a few names,a few words or maybe they are even stupid enough to think it helps,but it doesnt. I know I will never be "normal" emotionally but this chub minnow will make sure it doesnt happen to my babies.
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