Quote From: rkm0726Here I go again.
I turned on the tv last night when I got home, and the Dr. Phil show was on. Now I usually am on the computer at that time, but after the visit to the doctor I had just had, I was emotionally drained. So I sat in my recliner and flipped the channel and saw the new Weight Loss Challenge. Coincidense? I don't think so. I sat there and watched, listened, cried. And wished I was one of those people getting such a wonderful chance.
I'm a 50 year old woman, wife, mother of two grown children, and Nanna to 2 beautiful grandaughters. I see my reflection in a store window, and think "that poor woman HAS to be so uncomfortable!", then realize it's me! I went to the doctor yesterday to have my bloodpressure checked because I have been having terrible headaches and to get weighed after another bout of steroids for a throat/lung infection. They had to go get a 2nd scale, because the regular doctor office scales only go to 350. I started to cry. As I got on the scale, I couldn't see the numbers past my chest and stomache. Heck, I couldn't even see my stomache! When I stepped off and looked down, the tears started flowing. 350.8, and I am only 5'1" tall. The heaviest I have ever been in my life. And up until 28 years ago, I never weighed more than 125. Where is it all at? Well, I can tell you. It is in my face and neck, because I no longer have the high cheek bones I got from my Cherokee grandmother. And it's in my neck, that doesn't even exist any longer. It is in my chest, because I can't find bras large enough to actually fit me. It is in my arms, that ache when I wash my hair. It is in my stomache because I can't bend over to tie my shoes. It is in my thighs, that EACHmeasure the same as my hips did when I got married. And it's in the shelf that follows behind me where ever I go.
My blood pressure was 148/100. And was the same when I went back today. About 5 years ago, I flipped over to type 2 diabetis after being hypoglycemic for 10 years. I manage it with diet right now, with my A1C at 4.9. I have osteoarthritis that has eaten both of my knees. I had my right knee replaced in Nov. 04, and my left this April. And am still having so much pain in my knees and back because of my weight. I take a huge amount of diuretics and potassium, the specialist said it is the same amount he gives his transplant patients. This is because I am so fat, it is compressing my circulatory system and won't allow them to expand to pull the excess fluid from my tissues to carry to my kidneys and bladder. I have compression stockings to wear to help, but have no one to help me put them on.
I am not whining. I have done this to myself. But it is time to try again, yet again..one more time. I am running out of chances. 3 years ago, the kidney specialist said even though my kidneys were fine, he gave me 5 years to live if I didn't get this weight off. I didn't believe him. So I went back to my doctor, and ask him. He looked me straight in the eye, and said yes. So why didn't I do anything then? I didn't believe them. I was at 275. I believe them now. I'm afraid. Scared witless to be exact. So, I'm trying one last time. Because I know I am running out of chances, and time. Anyone want to go on the journey with me? Thanks for listening.
Hello,
Hi this is Richard Jackson. Just wanted to let you know that i will be praying for you. I was told on the show that i have onset diabetes and critical sleep apnia, i could have been dead alrteady but, by the grace of God i was given a second chance and i'm taking it! You need to do the same. There is hope for both of us. We can do it!
Sincerely,
Richard Jackson
