Messages By: voodidit

For many years I have had daily headaches and problems with balance, strength and double vision. In early 2003 I was finally diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis which finally put a name on what was going on.

Later that year after a MRI on my neck and spine I found out I also had Thyroid Cancer. I had a total thyroidectomy in Oct. of 2003 and it has been a long road.

The surgery has caused me to be hypocalcemic because my remaining parathyroids will no longer regulate my calicum levels. So in addition to all my MS meds I have to take mega doses of Calcium daily in order to keep my levels decent.

I have had 2 rounds or RAI and just recently finished 8 weeks off my thyroid  meds prepping for a scan to see if I would have  to have more radiation. Luckily this time around I can out clean, so now it's wait until next year.

Along with all my health issues I became a grandma twice in the past 2 years, first in Sept. 2003 and again in September 2004. I was also forced to take a medical retirement from work and am now on disability. Did I mention I am only 38?

Every part of my life is stressful, because of all my running back and forth to the doctors and my problems caused by the health issues it's almost impossible for me to even take care of my grandkids.

I do try to keep an upbeat outlook on everything, after all things could be a lot worse.

So far the only thing that has really worked for me is high doses of calcium and Vitamin D. i take 6 Oscal +D every day and a 25,000iu of perscription vitamin D 3 times a week. Even with that my calcium still dips a lot. the doctor says that my para-thyroid that is left will probably never take up regulating my calcium so I'll have to take high doses from now on. 

Just another price to pay..lol 

Sorry it ook me so long to reply! I have to say being a grandma is much better than being a mom...when I'm done spoiling them someone else has to deal with it..lol. 

If it wasn't for them I'd probably be crazier than I already am! 

I've posted before about being diagnosed with MS and Thyroid cancer within a month.  It sounds like your husband is a great support system for you even on the bad days! 

I am also on disability and wish we had a program to pay for all the meds like up there in Canada! By the time ou pay your basics living expenses, the meds and doctors take everything else! 

I will definatly ask my insurance if itcan be covered, it gets expensine, going through 2 or 3 bottles a month at 16.00 a pop. 

A little background, I met and began dating my husband in 1986. We dated for most of the next 13 years with a few time outs here and there. We finaly marred in 1999.  

Our main problems revolve around the fact that he is bipolar and will not get medical help for it. I actually moved him out over  a year ago, but we still communicate. if I mention divorce he strts in on that he's just going to kill himself. 

I do care about him still, but I no longer truly love him because of the hell he has put me through, emotionaly, mentally and physically in that I have MS and have complications from thyroid cancer. He has never been there for me. Either I drive myself 2 hours to see my neuro or on of my parents drives me. 

he has also never financilly been in support in our marriage. I know we would both be better off divorced but he just doesn't want to let go. We have no kids, just pets, he took the dogs, I kept the cats. 

I want to go on with my life and it is impossible to do when someone keeps dragging you in and trying to make you feel sorry for him. It's not that i am interested in dating because that's the last thing on my mind. I just don't want the stress anymore because it doesn't help as far as my MS goes.