Messages By: goldienz

At last  I have finally figured out the maze of who I am here.........I now have two identities due to my not understanding the log in etc and not getting an e mail........it arrived after I had set up the new identity due to a long download of a 'friendly' joke....My computer is so slow I had time to go to new message board using the link you all kindly sent me.  Set up new identity (because my old one was already taken ROFL).  Then  after going through the whole process I found my old 'clothes' lol.   So here I am.    Hugs to all and  have you  drunk you water????   walked a little???? and got your evening meal sorted already............no  rush and hassle in kitchen later.    Hugs to all.  Susie  Karen Pooz.............know that I am perched on your shoulders and hoping that you all have a fantastic time. Esmay

Karen you are so right.    Diana it took a whole 24 hours for me to work out things and like you I had adopted a new name etc (which upset me for sure).........then   oh my    the site sent me a link with all my old familiar things attached, including the picture....................so here I am back as the goldie kiwi LOL.   Today  w/g bread, 2 sl with honey on.   Things are a little interesting here (it being the tax time of year and also a little quiet at times) However I have drawn up the grocery list so that more fruit and vege can find the way into this house.   Today I will be working in the bookshop so that DH can have time to get in touch with his artistic side (and begin to paint etc again).  This is his only 'time out' thing and normally he is working 24/7.   Water bottles to be filled.   Walk needing to be taken...............yes golden dog is lining up for that one and bouncing on the spot.............lol.  I am still waking up LOL Monday mornings huh???   So a shower will sort me out.  Take care and make the choices with the consquences that you want.............hugs Esmay

Good morning  dear buddies.     Hugs to the old ones and  hello to the newer ones.   I am regaining energy slowly.   Today I am taking baby steps into the rest of my life.  

Since July I have gained every pound that I had lost due to throwing up my hands and holding the biggest  'don't  care  party"  ever  seen.    How  self indulgent and punishing was that??????????? 

Changes were still taking place within  though,   Man  DrPhil sure shoots straight.   I am feeling a lot stronger within, in ahealthy way.  So time to allow my outer image fit into my inner image.     

I am beginning with baby steps.............Step one is that  thinking.    So out with the note book and on with the awareness of those 'speed thoughts'  that actually energize me.    Ouch Ouch  already  I see some.   'what's wrong with fat'   'it is too hard to slim'   'who cares'  MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok ok  replace with positive and with thoughts I want...........not ones that have been programmed into my head  by past experiences.    How  does everyone handle this step one in TUWLS life.???   Hugs  again to each and everyone of you.     Goldie from New Zealand. 

Raven, Susie and Karen...........I receive  your warm welcomes with open arms and more importantly open heart.    

 AGain my own PERSONAL TRUTH rose up and slapped me in the face.   Whew - here I am taking a deep breath and absorbing all your encouragement...................I honestly hope that you all are encouraging yourselves just as much.    Today I realised that I need to dig through some piles and find  TUWLS and begin at the part of taking the exercises to find my REAL personal truth.  To get that straight and be REAL about that is my aim for the moment.   A good place for me to begin.    

I also realised how I use exercise - even the thought of exercise as a punishment, rather than a reward.   So another baby step is to find a form of exercise that will be a reward.  Something special that I will look forward to doing.    AHA  more of those speed thoughts instantly pop up.........where is that  thought note book......if I do not write them down  they kinda disappear and I kinda forget that they ever were.    lol   DO YOU  KNOW WHAT I MEAN?????? 

   Oooops time to shower and get going now...........hairdresser this morning - if it was not so late I would  cancel it so that I do not have to face her other clients..............however  that would be so inconsiderate at this, the eleventh hour.     By the way I am growing my hair long so that I no longer need  a hairdresser.   Just one long plait which can be pinned up so easily.    Another beautiful summers  day here.   Cheers and baby stepping out with my thoughts journal and a pen.  Goldie 

oh man  just  after having posted all those other wonderful posts popped up and blew me right out of my computer chair.   Shirley,   Blue and all my  other dear WLC buddies.   You  bought a new softness (towards myself) to my heart.   Thank, tears are in my throat.    Warm hugs as I cyberly take your hands.      Baby stepping with my good buddies into  today.  Goldie

Today I proved to myself that DrPhil is right re the thoughts shaping the outcome.  Today I told myself that I could eat healthy and enjoy it.  Then when DH asked what I wanted for lunch i told him a chicken char grilled roll  (includes a salad) and some fruit.    I did not eat at regular / rigid times.  Rather I ate when I felt hungry and  wahooooooooooooo   recognized when I was full.   For me this is success in baby steps.      

So the way I think - shapes what happens in my life.   Ok.   I know I will discover exercise that I enjoy...  I  know I will enjoy exercise.............practical, living bab y  steps.    From the car to the shop.   Around the supermarket.    Out with dear goldie dog.   Hugs to all.   Raven   WAHOOOOOOOO  you too are doing it buddie.     Marion love holding your hand.   Are you still car park walking????    I cannot wait for that  photograph to arrive.    Thanks in advance suzie.    Hugs all.    

Today  is Christmas Day in the Southern Hemisphere.   I am chillin'.   Wow  so many posts to catch up with.    Hugs and hugs to you all.     I am now going to spend the day with DH.  This is the one day of the year we can spend together at home.  The shop being open seven days a week normally.   Goldie dog has been walked............by DH.   I was reading my latest book............yes   lotsa  changes need to be made  for me to live a life style that will ensure this excess weight  drops off.      

Ani   so great to see you return too.  hugs.   To all my other  dear WLC buddies  hugs and wishes of a  smooth and peaceful Christmas Eve  that  eases into a wonderful, loved filled Christmas Day.  God Bless you all.    

Well today I was in the bookshop and  so I had plenty of time to read Dr Phil  TUWLS.   This key Number  1   has  to be  the crux for me.     My  WLOC is internal and man!!!!! Am I hard on myself.   So, after re reading the chapters  I have decided to change my internal thinking.   My general self talk is defeatist and self condemning.     All this  from reading  the  few pages.   

I can choose my thoughts, thus  re program my behaviour.    My thoughts powerfully program me.   So  I am putting it out here that I am replacing all negative thoughts with positive, productive internal dialogue.     I ask that you all help keep me aware.   

Fist step is to become aware of my faulty thinking.   One was "If I'm going to achieve my goals, I've got to work harder each time." ....................... wrong wrong wrong............yet typical dialogue for me.    

I am going to test each and every thought with the  4 steps Dr Phil gives us. So ladies watch this space.........................I will be here often lol.    Mind you I have to travel within the next few days and may be off line.  Hugs  Goldie  

Hi n Hugs.  to all  WLC  buddies.   Who has done the WLOC audit recently????  Oh my  what an eye opener that was to me.   Mine came up as   18 for the Internal.    11 for the External and  9  for the Chance.     I suspect Reen that you also would have a high internal score.      

I am sitting here wondering just where to go from here.   I guess a weigh in would be appropriate so that I can have a starting point.  Then to continue to read TUWLS, as an aid and guide.   Not just as a good book with a wonder 'cure'.   LOL.   Know what I mean Here???    

Blue your poems are so inspired and inspirational...    I cannot get to your page - can you give me the title for it  please. 

So many women here with the same goals.   Hugs to each and every one.   My baby step today is to go for a walk around the block.   To Read a couple more pages of TUWLS and inwardly digest.   Instead of  sugar  (that hunger driver)  I am choosing grapes, humus to eat as  snacks.   We have fresh lettuce and salad plants  growing in the garden and fresh herbs on the kitchen window sill.   Eating healthy foods is a tasty experience.   Catch up with you all later.   Goldie 

WHEW      I  DID IT.........................got all ready to do the indoors walk with Leslie.   Even tidied a little in the living room.   Then with the golden dog bouncing hopefully around,  I looked out the window and cut short my negative inner dialogs re walking outdoors.    I picked up the lead and poop bag, locked the door behind me and went a walking.   We  walked down to the cliff overlooking the shag colony and stony beach.  I threw her  'Kong' toy several times  (and enjoyed it).  Then past some campers, up a small incline and back home.   I met  a neighbour and his dog.  We talked for a minute.    I even complimented another neighbour on her gardening talents.   Wow   yes I talked to people, be it all only a  few seconds.  Then  home with a puffy and happy dog.   I also realized how positive it was for me.   My ligaments and joints full  healthier, if a little achy.   The sunshine has kinda solar powered me.  Soooooooooooooooo  I had to share.      

Suzie yes  we celebrate Boxing Day here in New Zealand.    The fridge is full of good food.   Cherries, strawberries,  lean meat,  salads fixings.   yummmmmmmmmmm    

Watching the post for the photo............really looking forward to seeing you all.   So from a Goldie who is getting  Real instead of Real Fat.      bye for now