Messages By: queenb2004

I wanted to stop and thank everyone for their support. My daughter has been spending this week with me so she could help me and just be with me and she has kept me so very busy. I have been blessed with a wonderful daughter she came up and  kept me so occupied I haven't had time to dwell on what is happening instead she has helped me clear the clutter in my life. We have tackled each room and as we clear out things I have collected over the years from extra buttons to  the  many when I get to it things.  She has helped me come to  realize that the things I have hung on to for years is draining me of energy she is great at telling me and you are keeping this why? The good clothes many shapes and sizes I have donated to a clohthing pantry at a church which makes me feel like I am helping someone and as the stuff disappears my feelings are becoming more clear.I have also learned it is ok to let go that just because someone gives me things doesn't mean  I have to hang on to them forever and it is ok to say no I wonder how she became so smart and she told me her mother I thank God for my daughter and the support and friendship I get from the board and just wanted to let everyone know that their caring means the world to me esmay emails me as does reen thank you all so very much for being here and caring

Hello I just felt I needed to stop and thank everyone again for the love and support  I have recieved here. I am going through so many emotions and fears and wondering how I will keep going when I  no longer have my husband with me where or how  does one begin again. Hospice is coming tomorrow I am praying for strength to be strong and able to deal with this,  I felt so alone but you all have reached out to me drawing a blanket of comfort around me and  I thank you all for that

Hi everybuddy  I am sitting here thinking of all the times I have come here to the board and found help and support so thank you again. My daughter had to leave and go home her father in law passed away yesterday so she is dealing with her and her husbands pain and I would ask that you pray for them in their time of sorrow. I am welcoming each day and trying to deal with all one day at a time, Tomorrow the hospice nurse comes out, I live up a goat trail since we have been hit by all the rain so I have to drive down to pick them up not  that I mind, I am just so glad they will come to us. I was just feeling kind of down so  I thought  I would let everyone know I am hanging in there at times I feel so lost and I am running through a bunch of emotions and feelings I am angry  and sad and totally confused  so I wish for the strength to get through this and be strong for him when at times I feel so helpless and weak and just want to take off running and never stop but I know I can't so I am hanging in there to the best of my ability  thank you all for listeniing

MY heart is filled with sadness my husband  has left me behind and moved on to his place in heaven I held him as he slipped away from me and   I know I will never be the same I am so destroyed by this I wasn't ready to let him go and yet he went any way. HOw does one pick up the pieces and move on I am grieving on the inside and the out side and I just want to join him that is all I want I love him so much

I had a beautiful service for my  dear husband. He was a veteran so we had a military service the vfw that we belong to did the honors and  His nephew who is a preacher did his eulogy. He wept a few times they escorted me to my place of honor my dear sister n law and  I made  a  picture board showing bill and I fishing and goofing off it was so beautiful to see how far we had come and they shot off the guns and played taps with a bugle it was so moving I wept. Last  night was the first night I spent alone and I felt as if he would walk in any moment and when I realized he would not be coming home I fell apart. I love him so much and it tears me apart and I feel lost without him I just want to crawl into bed and never get up  I miss him so much and I am so lost without him and I don't know how to carry on with my heart breaking