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I am 60 years old and have had agaraphobia for the last i years. I panic everytime I get dressed to go anywhere. I will make a million excused why I can wait and do it another day until my back is against the wall and I have no choice. I have anxiety so bad that I run from it by telling myself, I don't need things but I know thats just a lie. I was very active before this, and it  makes me so angry because I'm a people person and I've shut out the world trying to cope with this on my own. I went to therapy for years but it didn't seem to help much. I would love to be able to share with someone about how I can get my life back. I didn't get to be this old to deserve nothing more than just stay in and not live.  It' like I'm just existing and I would love to be able to be with people and laugh and dance the way I used to before this anxiety and panic struck me.

Phobias do not pick and choose who their going to torment. I don't know where you got your PhD but it couldn't have been anywhere that taught you compassion.  I have been in the medical field for many years and these comments you have made are not in any medical book in the world that I've studied.  Althought in my profession, I have unfortunately met people like yourself who were  only in it for the title and the money. Because I suffer from agaraphobia myself, I sympathize with anyone going through any phobia. I was told something many years ago and it rings true for everyone. Be very careful because what goes around comes around and you just haven' t got it back yet.  Your in the wrong professsion and God help anyone you treat if indeed you are a medical professional.

Although your story does not show up on screen, I lost 2 daughters at the ages of ll yrs. and 8 yrs. old. There is no other loss so painful as that. After my children died, I lost a brother, 2 sisters, the father of my children and my mother. I am in so much grief that I don't know who I'm grieving. Sometimes I feel that this pain will never go away. I can sure identify that it numbs you so you don't have to feel the pain. It seems that if you let yourself feel, you'll go mad. God bless, I wish you the best.