Messages By: nekocats2

Honestly, I think that horrible buzzard with the name of depression just hides and waits.  I do my best to function and be happy when life can be good.  I just do my darnedest to realize that yes, his really bites right now...but it can be worse.

Too all of you.....I do!!!!! appreciate your letters of encouragement and support and also the occasional kick in the booty when needed.  To anyone who is new...this is a great support and family network we have found.  My husband even thinks it is amazing and is glad I have found such a support as with you all.  God Bless!!!  

Thank you Mar.  Things are starting to quiet down.  I think I have ran out of tears and am just now numb.  He is back home and his girlfriend is here.  She is a very good girl and very good for him.  I am glad that he has her in his life.  I guess I am scared that he is going to be cursed with this demon of depression that I have.  My biological family is messed up also. My mom who passed away several years ago suffered from depression.  I have spoke with my children about it and asked them to keep aware of it...that is the depression.  It was not easy to do though.  I should get Dr. Phil's book.  It might do me some good. 

I don't think my son will ever hurt me.  I know you voiced some concern.  I just think he is very angry and there is still unresolved issues from his bio... dad.  His step dad is a great father to him.  Also, I believe that reality is setting in for him and his life.  He just graduated from high school and will be off to college.  Big change.  As much as he wants to "think" he is grown up....he isn't.  That has to be scary.  Me, way back then, I just wanted to get the heck away from home! Big difference in our lives. 

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for all of your kindness and support.  (my heart maybe empty now....smile.....but I really appreciate it!)  Hope you aren't in that horrible heat wave!  Take care!  Neko.

Yep!!  Lets kill that buzzard.  I can see us now.....sticks, rocks, bats, heck, my fist, knock em down to the ground.  That is funny you gave it a name.  I have given my "bad" back names.  It helps make the 24/7 pain days more tolerable.  My husband even knows "her" names.  Her name depends on how she is behaving i.e. pain level.  She is either a "boob".... a "but*"..a "b****"......smile smile...we get the point....leave it up to ones imagination.  The words can get bad.  (smile) hope I did not offend anyone with an offensive word.    Anyway, yes, the name we will have for this bad creature for depression is the BUZZARD!!  Let's get them girls....and guys also.   You have more muscle....well most of ya......hehehehhe

Ok guys....where are you?  Time to attack the buzzard!

You go girl!!!   yes you are so correct.  We are so lucky to be born here in the USA.  Especially as a woman.  I cry when I see shows about what is occurring throughout the world.  We are blessed!  I watched something with Lisa Ling about the woman in Rwanda (sp) and thought, dear God, why????  We are blessed.  I get so P.O. at myself when I get all depressed and feel sorry for my pitiful self.  I have nothing to complain about.  My pain is nothing in comparison to others who really suffer.  My life could have been theirs.  Their horror that they live daily.  I do thank God for what He has give me. 

You have a great night and great time with you hubby!  My won't be home for another 4 1/2 hours.  Chat with ya latter. 

I have tired a warm bubble bath with no lights on.  Just candles burning.  If I am lucky, I can last....ohhhhhhh,,,,,,maybe 10-15 minutes.  If I get out, I hear from my hubby, hey.....get back in.....(smile)  try candles.no lights on.  It is actually relaxing.  I just make sure nothing is near them if they fall.  hehehhe..  Also, try a nice favorite glass of wine and your favorite soothing CD. 

Good Luck!  Try it about 30 minutes before bed time.  It might help you sleep. 

Wish you luck!

Welcome! 

I hope that not only myself, but the rest of the "family" can help.  You are not alone with this world of depression.  In fact, we have given "it" a name today.  "It" is called the BUZZARD.  Now, when we feel that horrible ugly creature lurking near us, we will scream to kill the buzzard and help will arrive.  I suffer from this buzzard and it can be a total bit**!!!!! 

So, advise for you......gosh, do your best to keep him (you husband) in therapy.  Trust me.  It helps.  Also if antidepressants is needed, have him try.  Also, try the counseling with him. You are also in pain.  Don't forget that ok?  Don't forget about you!  You are very important also!

Again, welcome.....and together....we will attack that buzzard.  Trust me, I need help.  I am out of tears today.  Look forward to chatting again.