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We too had lots of trouble getting pregnant...it took us 21 years to have our first child....we spent 4-5 years going to fertility Doctor.  We could only go as far as our insurance would allow us, which was high hormone shots....lots of shots.  After 4-5 years of montly disappointments and 4 miscarriages, my husbands Father was dyeing, so we stopped.   Two months after his death, I just felt pregnant...it was Christmas Eve.  I took a pregnancy test (left over from my fertility clinic days) and found out I was pregnant!!!  I August of 2001 I gave birth to our daughter, Halle, who is named after her Grandfather who died....when they went back to the day of conception, it was on the day he died....which my husband and I know just could not be.  What ever was wrong with me, Halle fixed as in November of 04, I had our Son, Daniel.  I then had to get my tubes tied, as I was 44 when I had Daniel....We really think that if I had been more relaxed during the whole fertility clinic thing, it would have worked.  My Doctor (who birthed both my children) at one point told me that he was giving me enough drugs and hormones to get my husband pregnant!  All I can say is try, TRY, to relax.....and I will keep you all in my prayers, because that too helps.  I understand the whole wanting a baby so badly that you think of bad things to get one....we were married 21 years before Halle came along, and thats a long time to dream of being a parent.  Hang in there, and we will keep you all in our prayers.