Messages By: catlyninvt

Hi, 

I like this.  I most definitely must commit to post everyday on this message board and participate in the Key discussions.  I've already decided that I must get up at 5:00 a.m. on Thursday to post re: Key 5 before I go to work! 

(((HUGS))) 

Cathy 

Hey Tracy, 

Sending out  AND  's your way.  I know this can be very frustrating, deep breaths my friend!  My email is in my profile . .please feel free to email me! 

(((HUGS))) 

Cathy 

Hi Sharon, 

Yes, I'mmmmm baaaaaackkkkkk! *LOL*.  Seriously, I've spent my day reading the Board, reading the Book, sometimes in tears wondering WHY, WHY did I waste this time!!!!!  Water under the bridge!!  Tomorrow is a new day and I intend to make it a "real" day on my way back!  I'm just so excited!!!!!  Haven't felt this good in months . .now please, please, you have my permission to NAG me on the IE.  You know that's my greatest weakness!!!! 

Thank you so much for believing in me!!!!  My personal Challenge starts tomorrow!! 

(((HUGS))) 

Cathy 

Hi Connie,  

It feels so good to be back and I'm really wanting to be here and knowing this is where I need to be!  The sun will shine at least once a day (*LOL*) if only briefly . .I have made that commitment to myself!  Working, I may not be able to keep up with all posts, but I know I need to check in.  I look forward to catching up with you all on what's going on in everyone's life and sharing each other's progress.  What I know for sure is that I need you ALL!  I can't do this alone.  I have a lot to work through and know that there are so many good people out there (all of you) to help me!  

Yes, I'm already planning on getting up early on Thursday so that I can share in the discussion!  

You are all so  

(((HUGS)))  

Cathy  

NO,  this is exactly what I need from you all!!!!  My IE tomorrow will be to come home from work and walk for at least 20-30 minutes!!!  Ask me again tomorrow!  My goal is to start walking 20-30 minutes at least 4 days a week.  What I'd really like to do is get up early enough to walk 20-30 in the a.m. and then 20-30 in the p.m. . .at least until snow falls which is still awhile away.  Then, I'll just have to get the treadmill going . . . ugghhh, really, really hate the treadmill! 

(((HUGS))) 

Cathy 

*LOL*, you have a great sense of humor and lots of insight! 

Thanks Joe, 

(((HUGS))) 

Cathy 

Good Night to All, 

Have a peace-filled sleep!  

Sharon, I'll look forward to reporting to you tomorrow on my !!!!! 

Until tomorrow (((HUGS))) to ALL! 

Cathy 

Good Evening Sharon & Everyone!  

I cannot even begin to read all the posts since I signed off last night (210)!!! Now that I'm back to work it's just impossible and that's one of the things I have to overcome, my feeling that I need to be able to read every single post in order to be part of the Board.   If I don't reply to anyone directly, please forgive me.   As much as I love to come here and read, I need time to plan my menus, journal, get in the IE, etc. and still have some "me" time.    

So, anyway Sharon, here I am.  I set my alarm for 5:00 a.m. thinking, I really want to walk in the early morning, before work.  It was pouring buckets!!!  Now I know I'm not going to melt, however, I decided to wait and see what the weather would be like after work.  I spent my entire day arranging the classroom which consisted of climbing up and down ladders to hang things, lifting and tugging on boxes, furniture, bookshelves, you name it.  After work I went grocery shopping and by the time I had the car unloaded and everything put away I thought no, this is enough, my back is killing me, my knees feel like they're going to give out (I have osteoarthritis) HOWEVER . . . .I seriously kept thinking about how I was going to have to report in here tonight and yes, yes, yes, I headed back out the door and walked for 20 minutes, briskly at that!  

I'm also restocked on fruits and veggies.  I stuck to my meal plan today, breakfast, snacks and lunch as I had shared yesterday and for dinner tonight backed chicken (boneless/skinless) and steamed brussel sprouts, carrots, cauliflower & snow peas and an apple.  I have two more glasses of water to drink before bedtime, but at the moment am sipping on some green tea.  

My water bottles are refilled and chilling for tomorrow and tomorrow I will change my menu only by adding red & green pepper strips with the hummus instead of celery for p.m. snack and will have more of my steamed veggies (made enough for two days --I like Joe's idea of doing that as it sure simplifies things and saves time) and fish for dinner along with a fruit.  

I must say, it feels good.  I'm realizing I really need to focus on today, one day at a time.  

Tonight, as I ate dinner, I once again made a conscious effort to eat slowly, put my fork down, sip some water, etc.   This has always been an issue for me, eating on the run and inhaling my food.  

Well, I'm going to sign off and try to read through a few more of the more recent posts and will check back in later.    

I'm really feeling alot more positive about this than I have in a very long time.  The backslide discouraged me, kind of like "here I go again".  Looking back, I know what I did wrong and I know what I need to go back to.  

(((HUGS))) 

Cathy 

Hi Joe, 

Thanks for the kind words.  Remember though that this isn't my first attempt at the WLC.  I have actually read through the entire book at least 3 times and some chapters more.  I had lost 65 lbs., hit a very stubborn plateau, got discouraged that I could not seem to break it, and then allowed "stuff" to creep back into my life and my emotional eating once again took over.  At first, I was in denial that the lbs. were creeping back on and then when I could no longer deny it, it ignored it!  Bad Choice!  I regained 40 of the 65 lbs. The one thing I know is that I can't give up.  The backslide was bad, however, giving up and accepting myself as "fat" for the rest of my life would be worse. 

I am determined.  What's different this time?? I don't really know.  I do know what I stopped doing that led to my demise, however, and that is that I stopped journalling (food & feelings), refused to step up my IE, lost touch with my circle of support (long story here) and went back to old habits of eating on the run, eating to fast, etc.  Basically, I lost sight of me, of what I could and wanted to be . . .healthier, thinner.  Notice I didn't say skinny *LOL* as I'm a realist and I will never be "skinny" according to the worlds standards.  I can, however, be healthy and my current 264 (I'm 5'10"), is not healthy. 

You are doing wonderfully by the way!!  I had no idea you had already lost so much until I read some of your posts today.  Did I see where you've lost 13 lbs. on the first week of Rapid Start??  I'm glad that you're here and I really enjoy reading your posts.   I have to smile when I read about your Mom, even though it must be very frustrating for you!  My Mom actually wanted me to lose weight, however, she continued to make the homemade donuts, pies, cookies . .no meal was complete with dessert!! *LOL*  I sometimes wonder what on earth she expected me to eat when all she cooked was high in fat & sugar and low in nutrition, lots of fried food, gravies, tons of potatos!  She cooked the kinds of foods my Dad liked. You get the picture?  Bless her heart (she's been gone 6 years now), she mean't well . .I mean, hey, everyone else in my family ate the same things and I was the only one of 4 girls with a weight problem.  Go figure! 

(((HUGS))) 

Cathy 

Thanks Tracy!  I'm realizing once again how important this "connection" is toward my outlook, progress and ultimate success.  There's no way I can keep up with all posts and now that school is back in session, by the time I get home at night, walk, put the dogs out, etc., etc., I'm not able to get on as early as I'd like, however, I know it's important to just "get on", read what I can, share, absorb what the others have shared, etc. 

Yes, the children return tomorrow and the classrooms are already!  I just love the first day of school! 

I've been thinking about getting the "Leslie" tapes myself.  They've been recommended to me by several people and everyone seems to really like them.  During the winter months I can't walk out side due to the arthritis in my lower back and knees . .too dangerous that I might fall and really injure myself and although I have a treadmill, it gets old real fast.  So, I think I'll have to check those out.  I've always wanted to try Curves, however, there isn't one close enough to home to suit me and although there are a couple of gyms nearer by, they are just too expensive for my budget. 

(((HUGS))) 

Cathy