Messages By: tamsue35

hi all oh man i am so glad this board is back. i sure have missed all of you. i have been so lonely with out all of you. my brother is leaving todoay for his new job train in truck driving. job will for a month then he will on the road for a month. then he will be driving for all over who knows where for 8 days then home for 1 day. so this is somethig we all will have to get use too. and boy we all sure will mis him so very much. but we sure do need the money. he uis so nervous today. but he will be ok once he gets going and finds out what it is all about. well ill talk more about it later...so much has happend latley.. first of aug me and grandma are going to our yearly fam reunion . so mom will be here alone to take care of everything, and poor shelly will have to stay at home all a lone at night from 11pn til morniong. so if she wakes up and has to potty she will just have to potty in sides,,,...but it will just be for a few days...tama

hi every one just checking in on all of you. how are all of you doing tonight or this afternoon. ....tama

yes it does make it easier to read. hi. glad that we finily got this board back. i sure missed it. and all of you. i sure was flipping out with out all of you. for some reason my back space button wont work on here though. so i cant back space to delete a wrong letter. does anyone else have this porblem. see just like with that word . problem was mis spelled. and i couldnt back space. so i am still having to figure out the new board i just started on it today. it will take me a while. i didnt even know how the old one all worked and i still cant do pictures and things. but as you know my brain is lucky to just remember my own name... well take care. later for now..tama

on the other one . ...tama

it took me a while but i made it here. and glad to bee back just try n to get use to all this new stuff. it is kind of confising. but it will take all of us time to get use to it all. but it think we will gat it as time goes on. at least i hope so. i just wish i could get my back space to work....tama

yeah depression is confusing. and more things just adds to it my back space dont work in the message part either. yours does huh? hum just my luck. as usual im the one that it chose not to work on. well maybe i better be careful in my typing then huh? im sooo glad to seee my buddies again....i sure missed all of you. i was so lonely with out all of you. i felt so lost...tama

im going to go see if my brother is still at moms house. and if he has left for KC yet. he will be gone for a month and i want to say good bye again before he leaves for his job training. i just cant believe he is going to be a truckdriver OTR. gone for 8 days and then home for one. that just dont seem like enough time home to pay bills and get things ready and prepared for the next 8 days, espesaly if you have a family. i mean really. give a person a chance to get thisgs together. when they are home....but this is his first time doing this and his first time out driving. and he is still learning all this stuff. so i am nervous too and am going to miss him so much. and besides what if i or we need him to do something. i cant just call him and have him come over and do it. if he is driving over the road. starting today he wont be at my finger tips. and shelly is not going to like that either.....hahaha she is his big boss and what she bark s and when she barks thats the rules......hahaha.........tama

that purple hippo looks too much like me. but hey you all i have lost 20 lbs. since our last board went off. so i am finily loosing wieght again. with some help from some diet pills i saw on tv. and i just found them at wal-greenes so now i can buy them from there. so im doing great there. i still am not eatting much. so the weight loss makes me happy. when i weighed my self last week and saw how must i had lost i really couldnt beleive my eyes. i had to take my scale over to my moms and have my mom and brother look at it and have them look at it just to make sure i wasnt seeing things or there was something wrong wiung with my scale. and mom said the same thing. so i am trying to loose a few more so that i can be down to 200 even. so that when me and grandma go to our family reuion i will be in great shape so that everyone will notice how much i have lost. and that will be favulous. see my back space didnt work. i am wareing clothes i havnt worn in a long time. and things fit better too. so i cant wait til i loose a lot more.....tama

i am seeing a caraprator now . he has been working on my back and neck and hip, tail bone anything above my waste. i did get him to work on my knees just one time and that felt wonderfull. but he hasnt done them since. i sure LOVE the rolling machine. it feels soooooo gooood. everyone needs to have one of those in their own house. but anyway my dr said that the progress that we were making is not at the same spot. i have slipped back quite a ways back and now i have to go back to where i was weeks a go. i dont thinks i will ever have a day in my life that i will ever not have pain in my body any place. even if i was dead i would be in pain. ....tama

i feel it too. i havnt cut but i have burned. the only numb i feel is in a few of my fingers from when the stray cats bit me. i prob will never get my hand back to being right ever again. and i am left handed. but i have been feeling this way for so long i dont know how to feel any other way. when i do have fun or a good time it dont last. it is just for the moment kind of fun ya know.... my brain just dont know anything else. and neither does my body about pain. it i didnt hurt then i would know i was dead for sure..i just cant get anything on my body fixed right. or to work right...its out of wack in all places.....tama