Messages By: jenjen27

I really believe that 2lbs of that was from bladder infection because I gained it quick when I had that before I got sick and following menu plans, then lost it quickly tues and wed after I started my medication before I got sick too.  I am shocked too... I weighed myself yesterday as I knew today was approaching and was 141 I was shocked.  I am thinking one day I didnt eat right but I didnt eat a whole lot either as nothing sounded like it would taste good.  The rest of the days just little stuff here and there that was quick as I didnt feel like I had alot of energy or just things I craved because I didnt feel like eating alot.  Just something to tie me over.  Wish I could always eat like that.  but we all know its not that healthy of eating either.  I feel like I have a little more energy today too but still feeling like a sauna, like I am sweating from the inside out.  Hopefully Ill make it during peewee practice.  My first practice as coach.  Boy I feel like I am important now hahaha joking.   Bunch of 4th graders are really going to wear me out for 2 hours!!  My kids are going to be carrying me to the van to leave lol.    Hopefully Ill be okay.  Just get tired quickly still. 

I still have birthday today, its Mikes (my husbands) birthday today.  The soon to be 1 yr old is on the 22nd.  So in one months time we have had 4 birthdays in this family geesh!!  my 3 yr old was in August.  We had her birthday in the morning because she wanted BLUE birthday cake.  She saw me making it the night before.  She wanted it right then!!  I told her it wouldnt be done till morning just to hold her off... Boy she didnt forget!!  First thing she said when she woke up was Blue birthday cake DONE!!  haha. So for breakfast was a birthday party.   Then I had mine in morning sept25 as to have the fatty stuff first thing.  I also found that having birthday cake for breakfast works for me.  Get the sugar fattening stuff over with in morning have all day to burn it off.  So far all the birthdays we been having lately we have in morning time and I really seem to like it that way now.  I think the kids do too as they dont have to wait all day to open up presents haha. 

Well best go and congrats!!  Sounds like you lost some too???  It seems that if I do indulge just here and there sometimes as long as its just a little and monitor how much and make it before afternoon snack... I still lose just a little or stay the same.  I have lost total 20lbs divide that up with my 12 weeks now it only comes up to approx 1.6lbs a week because of my setbacks here and there.  But all added up really shows huh?  I am pretty proud of myself.  I was wanting to reach this goal 2 weeks ago but still did it!  Got 20 more to go even another 10 being realistic Ill be happy.  I was 120 up to 125 on my time of month before I had my third child who is 3 now.... So having two kids since then I have a goal to reach my weight that I had before but realistically I dont know if I can reach it due to well.... you know when you have kids your body and shape changes... so we will see if it goes back to the way it was.  Really depends on the person.  Worked first two times lol.  So i will try!! 

Take care 

Jen 

She is beautiful.  Congrats and hope to hear from you soon!! 

Jen 

Got a phone call today most dread... My biopsy was back and not good.  Bad spot... so having to have the cone done... which will be next tuesday the 18th and have to be there at 5:30am.   I now wonder if I am like the other lady my doctor decribed as having a bad biopsy, they did cone on her, and after that pap still came back bad... she had a spot that skipped up closer to her uterus... so she had to have a hysterectomy.  I surely do not understand all these things and never think of the questions when I need to... But even if you have a cancer spot away from pap area it will still detect it?  If not what and how do they detect the ones up higher in uterus and how will I know.  I dont want to be a sitting duck with cancer growing.   How fast does it progress??  I watch to much tv cancer progresses really fast on tv.  geesh does anybody know?  I dont mind having to have the cone done or even a hysterectomy.  I just dont want the cancer problem ya know?  The only reason I hate the biopsy is they do that while you are awake and to have someone put you in uncomfortable deal and sometimes a little painful and just watch it and know it etc... that is rough!  But I will be put to sleep for this deal.  Will still be nervous though, as any surgical room in hospital will do that to you!  I liked it when I was little and they put you to sleep.  They didnt do it in surgical room where you see all the tools and gadgets.  IT was a normal room... when I had my tubes tied it was in a surgical room they put me to sleep and I was nervous as hell, but as soon as I got sleepy I didnt care haaha.  Going out feels like I am flying around the place and dizzy. 

I ate terribly today due to all this and plus my 3 yr old found a q tip on top of everything else, and tried to clean the babies ears when I was fixin lunch for them... guess she only got one ear , but hurt the her and poked the eardrum... so I had to take her to the doctor and thats what they told me, he doesnt think it hit the bone which is the only bad thing that could really happen.  So have to take her to Ear, Nose, Throat specialist tomorrow morning to be sure that didnt happen.  If it did she might have difficulties in hearing out of that ear... if not it will heal up with no problems is what doc said.  I read where you could have a cold and fly in plane and bust your eardrums.. so that is kinda of a common thing that can happen just poking can cause hearing loss if you hit that bone... it is the part that vibrates sounds . 

Its been just a hell of a day for me today.  Talk later!! 

Jen 

Thanks so much for the well wishes...  Took baby to the ENT (ear, nose, and throat spec).  He said all looked really good and a common thing... Might take a few weeks to completely heal.    The only thing that could go bad is if it doesnt heal... which they might have to do surgery but IF they do it will be years and years down the road when she is alot older before they will to let her grow quite a bit first... So that is some relief.  Also that things might sound a little hollow to her for a while while it heals but nothing that is terrible that requires anything... just minor thing.  Told us to stop the drops they doctor yesterday gave us as she really doesnt need it... which is a relief as she screamed everytime I put drops in and it took a long time to get her to calm down... dunno if it hurt or not but gave her tylenol like hour before just in case it was painful.  Have to go back for a look again in a few weeks... got appt on nov 7th.  

Then with the Biopsy.. I have found out a few things but will double check with doctor when I go in.  My appt for the cone is Tuesday on the 18th so only a week away.  Guess with all that was hitting me yesterday I was sooo stressed and strung out that I was in worry mode.  It was just so much to handle yesterday and since I had a good nights rest and all its had time to all soak in... plus the good news about the little one helped as well.  I iddnt think of asking doctor at time of other biopsy about this because past biopsy was neg.  Just figured this would be too... didnt expect to get a phone call saying this is what we got to do and this is the day we are going to do it and I was like now wait a minute!!  lol... had a few questions but didnt think of them all... so then I had a bunch more questions and felt stumped!  I did check online but sometimes online its easy to find out technical things but sometimes the questions you have dont get answered so I have gotten a few answered from online research!  

That is great you are getting on track.. and feeling great about it too!!  Seems when you want to accomplish something and you feeling like you are on your way to doing it.. can really make a change in how you feel all around.   I totally understand about the shoes... I try to walk a mile a day with a friend except on weekends... but sometimes my schedule and hers we end up walking anywhere between 2-5 days a week and sorry to say none so far this week with all that has been going on.... but I have high arches on my feet so I have to have GOOD shoes with good arches in them not the cheap shoes.. well one day I forgot to change shoes and went in my flip flops... Funny I can wear flip flops all day long but when I do the fast walking boy my feet hurt!!  If I am going to be on my feet and constantly moving for a long period of time it has to be in good shoes!! 

Glad you got them they will make a huge difference... no fun in exercising if it causes pain where you normally dont have it. 

Take care and thanks for the thoughts!! 
Jen 

Things are calmer today and my scale went up on me, Today I get back on track since things are calmer I can focus on it better... Maybe Ill at least get back to last weigh in weight.   (((hugs))) to everyone and talk later as I have alot to get caught up on around here... laundry is about to take over my house as well as other chores and that just makes me on edge when things are way behind so need to take care of that so momma is happy haha. 

Take care!! 

Jen 

Hey dont be so hard on yourself.... we all have problems and even though sometimes in comparison you think yours isnt as huge... it is huge to you... so it does matter.   I really wish I knew something that could help.   I know your following the plan to a tee... I dont know why in month or more you havent lost.   I really hope someone on the message boards somewhere might be of insight for you. 

Got to go got things to get done and was making a quick check to read any post... Ill talk again later 

Jen 

Linda is right.... I didnt even think of it although Ive read about it when I was looking at reasons that could be hindering me from losing weight before I tried dr Phils weight loss plan... Which it worked for me so I looked no further.   I found some information... If you have a thyroid problem it would be Hypothyroidism.  Hypothyrodism keeps your body from losing weight and Hyperthyrodism makes it hard to gain.  I am copy and pasting some things about it below for you.... Also... I have read if your hormones are off that can cause reasons not to lose weight... If you have estrogen dominance in your system... it will store fat because that is what that hormone does, but when in balance with other hormones which there are other hormones in your body that uses that and burns it as energy.   I didnt know if that was what was wrong with me but knew my hormones were off so I am on natural progesterone cream at the moment.   I dont think it was hindering my loss now though but I know its helping in other areas. 

The list below includes symptoms of hypothyroidism. You may be experiencing some or all of these symptoms in a wide range of severity. 

• You have problems losing weight and seem to gain weight without reason
• You feel tired and weak
• You are depressed and moody
• Your hair is dry and rough
• You become cold easily; being in cold weather is painful
• You are often constipated
• Your skin is dry and pale
• You are easily irritated
• You have problems remembering and concentrating
• You have irregular menstrual cycles
• You have a decreased interest in sex
• You have muscle and/or joint pain
• Your fingernails may be thin and brittle
• Your face, hands, and feet are often swollen or puffy
• You are clumsy or uncoordinated
• Your hair is getting thin or falling out

Also the symptoms of estrogen dominance is  

Sounds like you have alot of things worrying you.   Hope your test and all come out okay.   Hope you have a fun and safe festival!!   

I am glad you are telling us alot that is going on it really does help to get it out and all.    We are here for you!  Ill be praying for you as well!! 

Take care for now! 

Jen 

Well I had alot going on last week and ate badly too... but I was able to fix it and end back at what I was last weigh in.... 161/141/141/120   

Talk later everyone as I got a sick baby and might end up taking her to the doctor today... had hardly no sleep last two nights, feel strapped to a chair holding her most of the day... I believe her throat is sore so might go in to make sure its not strep. 

Jen