Quote From: angel1002I am so sorry you miss you little one. I don't know how I would cope if I were in your shoes. I am glad you have your mom and your hubby though. And it is natural to feel like you may have made a wrong decission when you are in a vulnerable place. Missing the baby you have been with almost every day of his life qaulifies as a sore spot. You have every right to worry.
Just try not to be too hard on yourself or him right now. If he is anything like mine he is beside himself trying to think of a way to comfort you or cheer you up. Guys are just wired differently then we are and to them, what might be a good idea to distract us, may to us be dissaster! I know my hubby likes to work on go carts,golf carts, four wheelers, things like that normally calm him down if he needs a distraction so he thinks they will help me too. LOL I wouldn't know what to do other than ride these things!
Now I am not trying to make light of your situation at all. If you really have doubts, serious doubts deep in your heart, then you need to find thesource of them and get it out and look at them for what they are. Because sometimes for me, it is only anxiety that is tearing me up inside making me doubt what I know is true. But if they are real, you should deal with them too. You deserve to be happy in every facet of your life.
Justkeep in mindthat what you are going through, it could really be Depression and you might want to talk to your doctor about it if it continues after your son comes home. I am here if you need me. Angel
Thank you for your post. Yes my husband is going out of his mind trying to help me, and me being my stubborn self wont let him. He walks on eggshells because he has no idea what to say. The first week my son left, my husband just looked at me one afternoon and said "i've never seen you like this" Which is the truth, he knows me as the strong willed person who can do everything on my own. But when my strong point is gone, i fall to pieces.
When I was pregnant with my son i was extremely depressed. Here I was a single mom, living with my mom and my sons father didn't want a child at that time. OF course he came around and he is a good dad. I will give him that! I have been on meds before but again me being the strong person, i told myself "you dont need those" and i stopped taking them and went on with my life.
Right now I am at a standstill and my husband doesn't even know all of this that I am telling you guys. I dont want to hurt his feelings or scare him by telling him this. He knows that I am sad, hurt, lonely, depressed because all I do is drink at this point. But he doesn't know how to help or what to say because he is scared I will bite his head off.
