Messages By: carrie1948

I was physically, mentally, emtionally, spiritually abused as a child.   She is just way out there and cannot get beyond herself.   She is very selfish and cruel.   She is doing more damage to those girls than she knows.   I mean what gives her the right to blame any one or any thing for her behaviour.   She cannot keep on using excuses for what she does.   I have kids that blame me for their problems, but they are not being true to themselves or anyone else by staying in the blame game.    I quit blaming years years ago.   It did not serve a purpose to blame others.   The only person I was hurting in the long run was me.    I am not saying I was perfect as a mother, wife or even a person when I was younger, or that I did not play the blame game to an extent.   But in the long run I did accept the fact that was then and what I was doing I was doing no one else.   This Michelle is just wrong and I hope she can get some help, but Dr. Phil I kind of have my doubts.   She wants to go on blaming so she does not have to be responsible.   She at least has the intelligence to know if she does not play the blame game, she will have to accept responsibility, and then she will feel guilt and she does not want that. 

I am just now being or in the process of being bipolar.   I have lived 57 years knowing something is not right with me.   My whole family especially my mothers side should have been diagnosed many many years ago.  A few years ago my youngest son was diagnosed with bipolar shizoid.  But he was the first and only to be diagnosed with any type of bipolar.  I know when I was 20 a doctor told me that I was borderline manic whatever that means.   Now at 57 someone is saying bipolar?   I have lived all this time without medications or becoming an adict to street drugs.  That is not to say I have not had some really hard times, but somehow(with the help of God I am sure) have made it this far.   To anyone who says to do it completely without medications I say humbug.  I am sure my life would have been very much different and I am sure better if I knew then what I know now.   I try to help people online as much as I can, and then when I see I am not helping them I try to get them into counseling of some kind.  I don't know most of the time if it works, all I can do is try.   I look at it this way if I have come this far then maybe something I have learned will help someone not have to live this long without making changes in their own lives to be happy with themselves and the life they choose.   Thank you for listening.                                              Carrie