I'll try to make this short. My husband had an affair. It lasted about 18 months. We were together for almost eight years, marriedalmost three, and had three kids (4,3,and a newborn) at the time it started. He moved us to another state to be with her. Called her, texted her, and left with her right in front of me. He may have fathered her child. She refuses to have a test and we can't afford the lawyers fees to legally force her have one. We are trying to work it out but I can't seem to move on or forgive him. She told me she ended their relationship. She jnew he was married. In fact, she became pregnant around a month after she found out, while he was in a different state. That me think that the only reason he is here is because she dumped him. I keep wondering what she did so much better then me. What atrracted him to her cause let me tell you she is one ugly, fat woman. I find myself comparing everything I do to what I think she would/did do. In my mind she is Donna Reed and I'm Peg Bundy. It doesn't help that she is happily engaged and the man wants to adopt the child. Why does she get to be happy after she help ruin my life? I can't get close to my husband and won't let him touch without thinking of them together. He told me I need to grow up and just get over it, that he is with me now, but I'm finding that incredably
hard to do. I've tried counseling but it doesn't seem to help. I'm unhappy and feel as if my entire life and marriage is one big sham. That i just go through the motions. I just want to be happy again. I know marriage are hard work but this is just too hard.. So much for short, sorry! How do I move on?
Okay, sorry about the fat comment. It's just that I busted my butt in the gym two hours a day to get to what I was before I had kids. Partly for him. Now I'm smaller then what I was in highschool. And he left me for some woman that weighs close to 250?
