Hi. I’m sorry you’re
having these problems, but when you say no one understand what you’re going
through, that is simply untrue. The
problem is you’re not doing the right things to seek out those who understand
(and there are many). The feelings of wanting
your life back are very typical of addicts and alcoholics.
If you are accurately reporting what your docs have said,
they are complete idiots. Detox (and this
includes rapid detox) can serve to stabilize you physically, but as you’ve
already discovered, it’s not a long term plan.
And this is why it’s often said we can’t do this alone. We need ongoing support.
I’m not a Medicare expert, but I’d think they have to cover
a withdrawal in a hospital. But the
trick here is to find a hospital that has an inpatient treatment center. Even if a 30 day stay isn’t covered, you’ll
get access to the patients, counselors and volunteers on the ward. Why does this matter? You’ll be building up the support system you
need. And when you leave after a week or
so, you’ll have some knowledge of local NA or AA meetings.
Your post didn’t even mention these meetings and I’m
guessing this is the problem. We all
think we can do this on our own and we almost never succeed. And in those meetings, you’ll see people just
like you. Please consider this. You’re not a hopeless case; in fact, you’re
quite typical. But you’re not doing the
things you need to do to get past this.
