Messages By: alone86

but that's not even what's bothering me. it has to do with the wedding, but it's my mom and the wedding. i haven't talked to my mom since april. that's when she called me in the hospital. i had just been admitted to the psych ward after completely losing it during school. what do you think she said when i answered the phone? how am i? are you ok? no, she said, 'so why are you in there this time?' how do you respond to that? anyway, lets just say the conversation didn't go well. so...i thought i should email her and just let her know that i still love her and that i do want her at my wedding. so i did. i also let her know (gently) that i have a few reservations about her coming since she hasn't seen my dad in about 5 years and they don't exactly have a good relationship. she is remarried but still very bitter and resentful of my dad. my dad has forgiven her and he has moved on so i'm not worried about him. i digress yet again. anyway, i received a reply to the email which said, 'if you don't want me at your wedding i won't come.' this was not a nice, placid comment. she is mad at me. and i'm crushed that she would give up so easily. all i wanted was for her to agree to talk and work things out with me. and maybe agree to be civil to my dad at the wedding. but she just gave up. like she didn't want to come anyway. i was thrown for a loop. and very hurt. i'm still struggling. i am a christian and do love the Lord, but am having trouble finding that enough. please pray for me. thanks