Messages By: yelobtblu

Hi Everyone, 

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaack, and I see many of you are too.  I thought they were never going to bring back this board. 

 I guess we had too many spelling errors, I notice we have spell check now.  LOL 

Scarlet

I am having a hard time figuring out what to do here.  I can't tell who is replying to who.  I am so confooooosed.  I am glad they have this up and running again.  Withdrawal symptoms can be hard on a person.  Now that I finally got used to not coming here, they are re-issuing the drug. 

Scarlet

I would help if I could but I am in the dark as well as you.  Good luck and it is nice to see you.

Scarlet

29 and Mernziepoo,  I don't know if I like this board or not.  It is like anything else once you get used to it, it is easier to use.  Wish my husband was like that.  LOL

I am still going to visit the poetry site, I really like it.  Of course only a few of you are there, but the poetry is like a faucet of emotions pouring out into the cyber air. 

NIce seeing you two and you too Beaches, Lidica, Labelfree, Morelok and all you other cuties that I forgot.

I found a new trick.  I edited my profile, made my font bigger to make it easier to read. 

Some of you may want to try that.  I don't know that you all can read it bigger, maybe it

is just my computer that makes it bigger for me to read.  I also double spaced and

made my font bold this to make it easier for you all to read.  Does it help? 

Does anyone know how to search for a certain message?

Cathy, 

It is not my dad but my father in law, but he is like my dad.  A better dad than I have ever had.  He is one of those kind of guys who just makes you feel great for just having a baby, like you did the best thing in the world.  He is a good good man.   

He has had cancer since the beginning of last December and decided to do chemo.  His results were great.  The cancer was leaving but now the blood clot and all the fluid.  He lost a lot of weight and had saggy skin from it.  Now his skin is taught with fluid.  I just know he will either die tonight or tomorrow for sure.  They are taking him off the ventilator tomorrow morning and I know he will be gone.  He hates that hose in his throat and wants it removed.  They have his hands tied down and he is trying to get the hose out.  He wants to die and he has been ready for years at least his soul has been.  My poor mother in law will be lost w/o him, they have been married since they were 17 and adopted 6 kids.  I love them both.  

Thanks////Scarlet 

I saw my mom on a ventilator for 3 months before she died.  It is horrible.  Ventilators are not made as a way to live but as a way to live to tie one over to wellness.  Trouble is that they want to keep people on them for too long.   I believe in letting death have its way especially when they have cancer and are sure to die soon anyway.   He does not want to live on.  His wife is too afraid to let him take it out,  She is so attached to him.  He feels destined to live for her.  But when death calls, you either hav the strength to fight or you don't.  Sometimes you just have to go with it.  He wants to go.   

Thanks Beachsmiles, your words are very comforting as well as others on here.   

LOVE/////////SCARLET