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March 7, 2006, 12:31 pm PST
I am rapid cycling bipolar there is hope
Cathy when I watched you I saw myself two and a half years ago. I am rapid cycling bipolar also and I used to treat my sons badly also. There are medicatons that work for this. You need the right ones. My life changing moments came when I had a psyciatrist tell me that I am bipolar just like my dad. ALthough it was a devastating diagnosis it was also the best thing that ever happened to me. I am on Neuroton (generic gababpenatin) Risperodol and immovane. The combination of these drugs has had me stabilized. I currently have had no changes to my prescription so I am on a stabilized dose. It is a genetic and bio chemical imbalance that only medication can help. There is no amount of counselling or support that will help. I am so thankful that I have a psyciatrist that is very knowledagble about bipolr disorder. I also am getting my son assessed there is a 50% chance that a child of a bipolar parent can also be bipolar. My sons are the ages of yours being on medication also saved my current marriage because I was getting physically abusive with my husband as well as my sosn. I cringe and feel guilty when I think of what I put my sons through before I was diagnosed and now they are healthy happy and doing much better then I ever expected. I have a learning challenged son who is getting B's in high school and one on the honor roll. You are not a bad mom you are a very sick mom and the sooner that you accept that the sooner that you can get help to be the most awesome mom in the world. I used to call my kids stupid and dumb all the time. I may have even said that I hated them. But there is hope I got counselling for my kids and they are doing well and I would like you to know that there is hope and that there is medications that work. You can never be "cured" but you can be healthy. I would like to be there for you Cathy. I want you to know that you are not alone and that others are the same as you. I have walked in your shoes. I hope that I can be a friend to you or at least an online support to you
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