Messages By: oreo84

I feel that I have forgiven my abuser. However I'm confused as to if I should have based on what someone has told me.... He said that I'm just being emotional and that I haven't completely thought about what has happened to me by this person (s)....and how its to soon to forgive...blah blah blah..... Obviously I know what has been done.....

He thinks I'm crazy for having a relationship with them after everything that has happened. I'm old enough to know what I'm doing but hes makin  me doubt myself. The relationship that I have with them is nothing like it was but he doesn't see it that way... half the time he says that I'm not being truthful... like if something happened I wouldn't tell him.... sooo not true.

My situation is kinda complicated.... basically I left home to live with my dad cuz things at home was really messed up with my mom/stepdad.... i had a falling out with my dad and I moved back home.

I've been in therapy for a while.... met a guy there..... has similar story as mine... we'r friends and he's very touchy about abuse issues. He's been in therapy way longer than me and he thinks he's my therapist sometimes.

The main problem at home (amongst other things) before I left was my stepdad..... physical/ sexual.... relationship with mom was bad.... but now things are different.

Hey lou. It's been a long time. Would it be ok if we talked here?

Sorry but I don't remember you. I tried looking at some old posts but nothing came up that I remembered.

As for me.... I did a lot of growing up over the past year or so, not just physically but mentally. I am alot more mature than I was the last time I was here.... thanks to therapy in part. Things are pretty good for me right now...minus a few things. How are you?

Oh okay... Is the program your in going okay?

No I'm not living with my dad right now.... I moved back home. My brothers are doing okay too. they didn't take to kindly to the fact that I have moved back but.... things are going okay... I wouldn't have came back if they weren't...

Not at first.... had to look you up..... read some old posts.  I talked to you alot I noticed... so yeah.... I remember you.... sort of... I guess thats mean not to completely remember someone who talked to you alot.... You gave me alot of good advice.... I do know that you were golfallday....

Not quite sure where to start.......

I'm trying to think of a way to say what I have to say without being rude....

okay....

maybe I'm taking this the wrong way... but you are actually the second person who seems really ticked off at me. Is it the fact that I came back to the boards... that I went back home.... or the way I left and have been gone for a while..... I don't know.

Okay...

Why would I run off? I was in fact busy so I'm just now reading the board since I last posted.

I never said I didn't remember you.... I said I didn't completely remember you. You said it yourself that I talked to alot of people on the board who invested a lot of emotion in me and my situation... I did talk to alot of people on here and other boards, basically I was getting the same advice from everyone about myself and what I should do about what was going on so my memory of some of the conversations kind of mesh together. It's been a long time.

What do you mean I know what questions you have for me?

I really don't.

Is this like a post from you, her.... both.... or everybody that I use to talk to?

Seems like you are the only one.... who's glad to see that I have returned to the board... I don't know.. I'm not sure if I will continue posting on here.... between my busy life and the conversations that I've been having on here lately... I just don't know.

It's nice to meet you.