Messages By: mernziepoo

The mood is worried. I am feeling down about my job, and the fact that it looks like I will be out of work again for a while. I have very big financial problems and really need to be working right now.

Felt sick last few days too, because of the stress of my life and I guess I am just feeling really disappointed in myself.

Well that's okay we still love ya here. Be careful though a dragon like you could cause a lot of damage blowing smoke the way you do.

Thank you for saying that. Most of the time I think that I can do something about it too, but I just find it so hard to know what the next right thing to do is. When I pray I always pray for guidance and the for thought to know what is my next right thing to do. In the mean time I am trying to continue to take care of myself so that I don't get too far down again.

How are you doing tonight?

The funny thing is my client called me because he was worried that the problems with the contractors was affecting my health. He wanted me to know that they only cared about how I was. I thought that was so nice and I have in all my years never had anyone say anything like that to me and know that they really meant it.

Then I was thinking how funny when I was feeling so upset about letting them down as well. I think I understand what you mean. Do you mean that I should act in his model? Act as his teachings tell me to act. Yes?

That is what I try and live by anyway, no matter what is happening but I guess sometimes it is tougher than other times. Thank you for your support.

Now if you can't decide and are feeling mixed up I think that that means that you are about to make a discovery about yourself. Your heart is trying to find some answers. Just a thought...time will tell.

Hugs and prayers Mar.

My husband is a good guy most of the time. I am lucky that way now, but I had a really awful guy before I met him and so I do know how bad they can be.

I will tell you one thing though, sometimes I just treat him like one of the kids and he seems to be pretty happy with that. But sometimes I think wouldn't it be nice if I was the kid?

Have a good night, Mar.

Okay now I feel better. I still am worried sick but when I sit and think about the blessings in life I feel much better. I will keep doing what I do and try to keep it right. I am off to bed now because I have an early morning with my little ones.

Thanks for being here Jewel. You are a good soul too! I have a friend that I talk to about stuff like you and I just talked about. She has a good soul too, and shares our faith. She would be happy to hear this as well when things get her down.

Many blessings,Mar.

I will be taking the little ones to the park this morning, so can only be on for a few minutes. Understand that it is really hard for them to wait. They think that 15 minutes is an eternity. LOL!

I would like to tell you all that I had a Good night on the board last night. Hisjewel was very helpful in making me feel better. I hope that she is feeling better this morning.

Ecurteous - Hope I spelt that right. - We were talking about how I like to conduct my life. I always like to weigh out what the best thing would be to do. I like to look at who a I helping if I do this, could I be hurting anyone if I do that? I think in choosing the loving and kind solutions in life that we are acting in God's shadow. Living as he would have us live. That is really what we were talking about. I have had some big decisions to make lately and there are always so many people involved so I always ask good to help me know what the moral decision would be in that case.

Hisjewel - Thanks so much for being there last night. I woke up a little worried still but if I know anything I know that I mean well, and if I know that than I think surely God does.

Beachsmile - I miss you I wish I had time for us to talk again. Maybe when I write the poem that was running around in my head last night when I went to sleep, I will see you there. Many blessings.

Labelfree - Honey - I understand what you are saying - You just want us to understand that this site is here to help us, let's just rejoice in that and be thankful that it is up and running again. I am so grateful because all of a sudden I feel like someone will be there for me when I need them and I will not have to burden my family any more than I have to.

Alone86 - Honey I am sorry that I keep missing when you are on. You sounded really Good to me though and I am glad that you are feeling well, and wow nursing is such a noble trade, as is being an emergency person as well. What ever you decide to do I know you will chose well because of the moral person that you are.

101160-Cathy - Girl are you quite calmed down now? LOL - You are just too much woman that's what the problem is! They just don't understand that! I hoe that we can catch up later on today. Be well!

Okay my little children are starting to self combust so I have to go. I hope to check in later today though. Many blessings and lots of love, Mar.

Did you happen to see my post? I noticed in yours that you mentioned "the Orphans of DP". I had too many problems trying to set that up as a non paying member and unfortunately I couldn't make it work. I have already apologized for that here. Believe me if I could have made it work I would have but I couldn't. It was very frustrating.

Anyway when I heard that the boards were open again I was so happy because I found that out the day I gave up trying to make the Orphans work.

Just thought I would let you know.