Messages By: lonalea200

I even went and had hypnosis, the thing is your subconscious will only what you can handle to come out. It is hidden because we couldn't handle it as children and so it comes bit by bit as we get older and can handle it. Doesn't seem like we can sometimes though does it. I still get memories and bits and pieces here and there. We can't rush it even if we try, just deal with what comes up take it easy and if you buy that book, believe me you will want it to take time.  

It is a good book and even has some exercises for you to do and you don't have to start form the beginning, Start wherever you want.  

Weather you be alcoholic, addict, anorexic bulimic, a cutter or a codependent. This is the place for you. I would really like to see this board become what it once was. A place for loving support and guidance into a happy useful life. So I start this week with the serenity prayer in it's entirety: 

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change 

The courage to change the things I can 

And the wisdom to know the difference. 

Living one day at a time 

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace 

Taking, as He did, this world as it is 

Not as I would have it. 

Trusting that He will make all things right 

If I surrender to His will. 

That I may be reasonably happy in this life, 

And supremely happy with Him, 

In the next. 

                          Reinhold Neibuhr, 1926 

Peace and God bless you all 

Remember it's never to late to live happily ever after 

Mischif 

You are normal! stay here on this board and the Childhood Sexual Abuse board is a good one too under support. You will see that what you are  feeling is normal, you can't get over it, sorry. Wish it were that easy, but it's not. 

Compared to someone that has not been sexually abused and does not feel what you feel then they are not normal. Because what you feel is normal, the intimacy and the whole feeling normal thing., that is all normal. Make sense? Just say to yourself, I am normal!! 

mj 

I guess that what I meant with the others types of addictions was that those who cut, binge purge etc as a way out of their pain certainly do have a lot in common with us.  As you may know most people who cut are not suicidal and often get exactly the same rush/relief from what they do as taking drugs and alcohol. Most treatment centers for these diseases use a 12 step model for recovery and we all can identify with that. I just don't want anyone to feel turned away when they are making a last cry for help. I do agree that this mental health board should have a board specific to cutting. In my field I see a lot of cutting but very little about recovery from it. 

But I felt that just when I might have been making a little headway with Alexie she was chased from the board. I hope you are still reading girl. Contact me any time. 

Ps.  I heard from Dopigirl over theweekend via e-mail - she's hanging in and staying sober 

You Go Girl!!!!!! 

Peace and God bless 

 and remember 

It's never too late to live happily ever after. 

Mischif 

I have been trying to figure out a whole lot about myself in the past few months since I almost lost it, I've come up with a few things I think I'm dealing with: social phobia, specific Phobia's (dark, cemicals, diseases)  obsessions and well a general state of anxiety each day.  I work full time but my thoughts wonder all over the place, I have attackes in meeting and when I'm put on the spote infront of people.  I have a 3 year old who when is scared at night needs me and I'm just as scard myself??? I have slept with my own night light for 5 years.  I become paralized in fear feeling like someone is there with me.  I feel like I'll sufficate if I don't turn the light on.  I don't talk about the disease topic...  it just freaks me out. 

I try to talk to a social worker but hey I have a social phobia so I just clam up and smile and nod like I'm o.k but really I'm just screaming inside.  Now I am only going like once a month which does nothing but what can I say?? I don't feel like I'm getting any help to deal with this stuff but I gess I'm realizing it is just up to me.... I am reading a anxiety book but I don't feel confident that this is enough.  I wish I could just shake this off.... 

I don't know if a medication would help me but I do feel like I need to take the level down at least a notch I'm starting to think of quiting my job because of the stress and exostion it causes me just to get in there is alot.  I don't want to make anything worst. 

any advice??