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July 25, 2005, 4:10 pm PDT

Good...For You..

Did you Graduate?  Your College Bound?

 

My Oldest Daughter graduated this year.....

 

By The way between me you and the lamp post and nobody else invisible bubble over us here I have a special screen saver I put over us so nobody can access us xoxox are you a cutter?  I can tell how smart you are... I mean you must have a very high IQ....So just to recap you never got high like me  I did every single drug under the sun and drank every sing drop of booze...GOD did forgive me didn't he?  I ran around when I was younger  I was actually saying "HEY LOOK AT ME>>>MOM DAD>>>YOU BASICALLY IGNORED ME AS A CHILD I was invisible  let me try this approach....Negative behavior is better than NO BEHAVIOR and guess what....That didn't even work...I was still nothing in there eyes....Isn't that a sad story sweetie....:(

 
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July 25, 2005, 4:12 pm PDT

Im so sorry to hear.....

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I wasraped when I was 3 by a next door neightbor at 11 by my Dad's friend and 13-14 by my Mm's bf. It affected me because I felt like I needed always need a guy. And I started cutting because I had low self esteem. And I am now only 17 but I have changed my life around I am drug and alchol free and no smoking and I got my GED because i dropped out as a freshman because I was pregnant from my mom's boyfriend. Now I have my license and I'm going to be going to college this fall full time at night.

the terrible things that happened to you too......I am glad you turned your life around!  Great for you girl...KEEP movin forward.....YOU GO GIRL
 
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July 25, 2005, 4:20 pm PDT

Ah Today!!!!

Instead of smoking yukkie stinky cigarettes I get a deep tissue one hour massage.  This is a special weekly treat and a reminder that I am a winner and it helps me mediate and it makes me feel great inside and out!
 
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July 25, 2005, 6:51 pm PDT

It sounds to me.....

like your abuseing yourself...Your temple but do you even know why?  That is the miliion dollar quesation really!  Why do you hate what GOD so LOVES..?  Are you just starting these behavior's or have they been going on for years?  Or ahs it built up to this?

 

By all means I am NOT a doctor at all just your friend...

 

truly...

Just your sister on the road of life....

 

Why do you think you are truly hurting you?  Let me ask you in another way....If I was doing the same thing to me under the same exact conditions  why would I be doing it to myself?m  Please help me?

 
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July 26, 2005, 4:31 am PDT

Hey.....

Sometimes kid....You gotta take it one minute at a time.....

 

All these little tricks the digging the biting the whatever there coping skills.

 

For a more so much for bigger picture....

 

As I said I am NOT a doctor...

 

Invisible????

 

Yeah me 56 days ago...I was contiplaimplanting killing myself or becoming magnificent  I quit my last coping skill smoking the "devil cancer sticks"  Newport 100's  What a sleek cool image that was   NOT...  Well at least I think it was 56 days ago  My quit day was June 1,05  I cant keep up now because today I don't even wear the patch anymore I turned my last addiction over to my Heavenly Father..

 

PLEASE TODAY GO OUT TO THE BOOK STORE AND BUY DR. Phil's LIFE STRAGIE BOOK it saved my A@@!  I want you to go to college as prepared as you can......Walk into adulthood armed with as much information as possible.

 

Leave the dysfunction of your youth behind you.  You will see in those 304 pages how frickin great YOU  are and why it is you do what you do and how to stop all this behavior  TRULY!  hey I did so can you!  GO today....

 

If I lived close to you I would take you but I don't...If you don't have the money go to the library....There really is no excuse for stopping your greatness to come...

 
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July 26, 2005, 4:44 am PDT

Here it is...

I was diagnosis ed with the "LABEL" of some sort of depression am I depressed today?  NO! Do I take anti depressants?  YES.... A few months back I came here and FOUND support wonderful support and alot of great friends and on a daily basis I pray for all of you.

 

With friendships which are true and let me ask you something board or should we just have surface friendships because Ill keep my big mouth shut if that is the case okay I see some really strong hero's here,  I see some really people who are stuck in a rut,  and I see some who like to "ZING" people.

 

I also see people who could give a rats a@@ whetrher I live or whether I die.  WHY are we really here?  Are you or I here to dump or to complain about life or are you motivated to get better?  I utilized this site to save my life....What about you?  Really...What are you doing?  Or will no one respond AGAIN to my frickin messages!

 
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July 26, 2005, 6:42 am PDT

yes Softball....yes

The exact same thing happened to me..

Your life does not need to be ruined.  Dr. Phil covers this in his book life stragies and he gives you all the reasons and what to do.  Now get yourself to the store and buy that book!  I wish I would have bought it YEARS ago but he only wrote it about two years ago.  Its not gut wrenching or anything like that its more like "BOINK" thats why I think that way!!!! OH or  GEEZ>>>>More like the light inside your brain goes on in the place where the abuse took place truly..xoxoxox

 

He provides not only a VERY CLEAR and gentle "DR" reason of inside thinking but a lets look at this BS and now lets sweep this BS up and "CLEAR OUT the cob webs and get on with this thing we call life.....your worth it...IM worth.....so dont allow your brother  your FATHER not for one more day to abuse you whether it be invisable or anyway or your husband's abuser's  live your life  and then let your husband read it CHOOSE TO BE WINNERS NOT LOOSERS  xoxoxoxoxo  THAT IS ALL THAT NEEDS TO BE SAID GO GET THAT BOOK AND THEN TALK TO ME  YOU WILL BE HAPPY AFTER YOU READ 304 pages  end of discussion!

 
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July 26, 2005, 8:05 am PDT

Go To THE LIBRARY

and read the book before you start college xoxoxox
 
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July 26, 2005, 9:03 am PDT

You help so many others.....

Why not helping you?  Where are you?  I see you do you?
 
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flirtatious
July 26, 2005, 11:13 am PDT

What dp you mean I am there?

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I am not new on the boards but I feel like I am, the boards are so different now.

I know that I am freak and don't get much posts, but that is ok. Sometimes I just want

totalk. I am used to being ignored, That is whatI like. I want to be free of all this crap and can't seem to get there. Every time I feel like I have a hold of it some other flashback comes and send me in a whirl.

I feel different from all other people, being ignored just reinforces that for me, I hide in the shadows, waiting for the day I die, I know that no one would notice that either.

I read Lablefree's post and she is "there" so I feel that I shouldn't even be here because I can't be there yet. I do start counseling soon, so maybe they won't ignore me there. I will just stay away, I really don't think this board is supportive or helpful.

I used to be not all there...But now I'm there...are you here?  get here..then you'll be here ..

 

By the way   usually  everyone ignores me too... So what the heck are YOU talking about?

 

I am PROUD That you are going to counseling  PROUD SO PROUD for YOU!!!

 

NOW WHAT ELSE do you have to say today that is POSITIVE??

I only want to hear POSITIVE  don't drain my GAME.....GO YOUR IT!

 

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