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November 13, 2005, 9:23 pm PST

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Quote From: outofreach

hi on June 1st 2005 i gave birth to two beautiful babies Evelyn Sue and William David my little girl didn't breathe at all my little boy stayed with us for 3 weeks the doctors said that he was to little a fighter but his heart and lungs weren't fully developed my babies came to early this has changed my life me and my husband don't hardly speak anymore i don't sleep i try so hard to block it out but it doesn't work i have started a second job so i don't have to deal with being home their room was all ready for them i hate feeling this way!!!!! i have no idea how to get though this i really just want to run away my husband is trying so hard to be there for me but i keep pushing him away we just found out that we are pregnant again and i am scared to death i haven't been myself lately i don't want this baby to die

Hi my baby Kailey was still born on January 26th 2005 and we are still trying to get pregnant again.  She was my second pregancy, my first was a misscarriage at 13 weeks.  I can relate to how you feel with your husband, as we struggle everyday.  Unfortunately we will never be the same people we were before we lost our babies, but know that your husband is there for you.  You will need his love and support to get through this preganacy, regardless of the outcome.   You should try to talk to your husband.  This pregancy isn't going to be easy, but it will be easier together.   The pain and loss you experienced will not go away, and this baby will not replace the void of your other angels, but the best gift you can give to them is to live you life in a way that will make them proud.   

what I find the hardest is to see through my pain, that my husband is greiving as well.     

I wish you the best with your pregancy.    

 

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