Messages By: bigred80

I have to begin with, wow! I didn't expect to get that kind of response. And both so different.   

I have been thinking long and hard about this for sometime now. And yesterday I made my decision. Both points of view made me realize what I want to do. And the reason I have made the choice is that the reason I left my previous long term job, was because I had no sense of reason when I was doing it. I need a reason and purpose to be doing something.   

So now I am on the path that I know is best for me. I want to thank you Rog for your support. You made me ask myself some of the questions that I had to ask myself.   

Thank you and all the best   

Nat   

I have decided to Join the Federal Police.  

When I got the message from 'queentween' I realised that I would never be able to get past all those things that were mentioned. It's hard to explain. When I thought about running my own business, I could never visualise enjoyment in it and I thought to myself that if I went in to something with that feeling, that attitude, it was going to happen.  

The other factor is that my husband has been posted somewhere else, which would have meant splitting up my family. And without that support group I could not have coped. So why the police force? Well when I met my husband we were both in the Navy. I loved being a sailor, I just hated going to sea. I entertained the idea of joining a different force, but felt neither were me.  

I am very interested in counseling and helping people. However I also enjoy working in an environment that has clear guidelines, discipline, structure and chain of command. I also have to have variety in my work. I enjoy desk work and I love getting in and being physical. I like meeting people, but I like to have a certain level of contact. I feel that me as a person might not make a huge difference, but I can contribute to a group of people who do it every day.  

So again thank you so very much for your insight and guidance. It was much appreciated.  

All the best  

Natalie  

When you posted your message about how your back was playing up on you, I thought to myself, 'if she can manage to do it, so can I!" 

Today I read your diary entry. I too have been slipping... well, all over the place. Your support has guided me and has been a great help. 

However your diary entry, it opened my eyes to my own problems. There are people in this world, who knowingly or not, are bringing me down and I have not faced them. What they have done to me is a reason to do something about it. And if you can face this world with hope after what has happened to you. Then again there is no reason I can't. 

I believe that everyone one in this world that you meet has a message to pass on. I know yours was to tell me that I can move on from my past. 

Hi 

Well I have to be the most unorganised person I know. And more than a bit easliy persuaded. So last time I posted a message I had a clear goal in mind. I still have a clear goal, I am just taking a different path. I still really want to join the police force, but I have also just gotten in to a home based business. (I think that it is the perfect solution due to our lifestyle). 

Anyway, sometimes I am feeling like I have bitten off more than I can chew. I have a mentor who has been really successful in doing what we do, but sometimes I am feeling like a fish on a hook, being pulled along at an alarming rate of knots. And other times I feel like I am drifting aimlessly. 

I know that what ever happens everything is my choice and my RESPONSIBILITY, but I just feel like I know nothing and I can't seem to get enough information to get me going, only to look back and realise that I have gone a really long way from where I started. 

Other than the confusion it has been great. I work around the time that I have available to me and more often than not I find time I didn't even know I had. And when we move in December, I pick up my business and take it with me. No hassle relocating. And another thing is it is getting me out of my comfort zone, which I am sure the police force is going to do:0) 

Take care all 

Nat 

You are right about what is going on.  Yes it is a multilevel marketing business. And yes I was being told to do things that I didn't want to do. After I read your message I thought about why I was doing it in the first place and somehow I lost sight of my personal what and why. 

I started the business to get a discount on the products that I am using that are helping me to get my weight down so I can join the police force. I was happy to learn about the business and to see what happens, if I made money out of it, great! If I didn't, I am still getting what I wanted for a discount. 

But then I realized that I was doing the business and everything else was put on hold. It was only until last night that I realized that I had TOTALLY forgotten about the police force. Meaning I hadn't been thinking about my career goals in nearly a month. Something that I had previously been doing on a daily basis to stay focused and assess what I was doing to get where I was going. 

I can't believe how manipulated I had let myself become. 

So am I doing the right thing? YES! I want to stay with the business, I want to stay on the products, but I am going to do it my way. The people that I am learning from will have to know that I am in charge of my own life and I am the one to set the boundaries and change them at my own discretion. That is for me and only me to decide. 

Thank you once again for your much needed and amazing insight. 

Nat 

You know when everything is getting you down and there is supposed to be a light at the end of the tunnel, or so people say! Some how today I found mine.  

I have just been scrolling through a dozen or so messages and something I notice is that not many people seem to be happy doing what they do. It doesn't seem to matter how old you are or what you do, just that there seems to always be that dream job or opportunity just out of reach. 

So today I had a realization. I am 25 years old and I only have a small, somewhat crazy idea about what I want to do as a career. And this small elusive idea scares the beejeebas out of me. But I thought about it and what do I have to loose? So I am going to try my new 'dream' job and see how it goes. 

You see, my realization is this, we seem to think that we spend our working lives trying to find the job that is right for us. However I have decided that I am going to spend my time finding out what jobs I don't like. 

So I try a job and I do it for a week, month or year. Who knows, have I been waisting time in that job when I could have been doing something more interesting or rewarding? NO, I have been doing something, learning different skills, a new trade, anyway I learnt something and I may or may not use the knowledge again, but it is knowledge that I have gained. 

So I may not be happy RIGHT now, but I know as sure as the sun coming up tomorrow that I won't do certain jobs again. 

Nat