"I think people see us from the outside as having it all, and many times I'll think, 'If they only knew,'" says Debbie.
The entire family walks on eggshells most of the time because of Brandon's mood swings, whether he is medicated or not. He has demonstrated violent behavior and when he rages, he often punches holes in the walls and kicks in doors.
Talking about his relationship with his sister, Brandon screams at his mother, "She yelled at me, 'Well you're a drug addict!' She's such a bitch! I'm not proud of that, Mom. I can't f***ing help it. It's not my fault!"
In another incident, he was seen yelling at Debbie saying, "And all you see is a f***ing worthless drug addict who needs help!"
"Those are your words, not my words," replied Debbie.
"I was ready to kick him out of the house years ago," says Doug, "but Debbie and I didn't see eye to eye." Because they disagree, Doug distances himself from any situation that involves Brandon. "I don't
Every morning, when Debbie goes up to Brandon's room to wake him, she's afraid she's going to find him dead. "Many times when I'm worrying about him, I've planned his funeral," says Debbie. "I've picked his pallbearers because I'm so sure it's just a matter of time."
Doug and Debbie are also concerned about the impact Brandon's drug abuse and behavior has on their other two children, Christina and Bobby. "I can only hope that Bobby and Christina don't go down the same path," says Doug.
Christina says they're not as close as they used to be, mainly because of his temper. She explains that Brandon once went into a rage at a restaurant and was verbally abusive toward her. His violent behavior continued at home where he destroyed something belonging to Christina. "It was very... ugly," she recalls.
Christina finds Brandon's behavior embarrassing. "Everyone at school knows that my brother does drugs," she says. "They just put two and two together and think, 'Well, maybe she does drugs.'"
"The way he's going right now, I don't see a future for him. He needs help," she says.
Bobby also feels cheated because all the attention goes to Brandon and it makes him feel left out. "I worry about people thinking that I'll do drugs just because my brother does," he says. He's also scared that Brandon will get into a car crash from driving under the influence of drugs.