"Since I have studied this situation, it has haunted me every day," Dr. Phil tells Jacque, now joined by Shanda's sister, Paije. Paije was only 19 years old when her sister was murdered.
"Tell me what you say to yourself," Dr. Phil asks her.
"I'm a very closed-off person," Paije explains. "So I talk to [Shanda] at night. I tell her that I love her." She says it helps some, as she battles feelings that she's forgetting about her. "I don't want to forget her, but as time goes on, you do. I wish I could have just had one more time to say, ‘I love you.'"
"How do you deal with [what they did to Shanda]?" Dr. Phil asks Paije.
"I never want to understand how anyone could be that evil," Paije describes. "It's very hard for me to understand how that could be an exciting night. How [one] can get in a car and know they're going to kill somebody, and that be exciting. I just never, in a million years, understood."
[AD]Jacque says, in addition to all their monstrous behavior that night, Hope Rippey sprayed Windex on all of Shanda's wounds before they burned her alive. In yet another startling detail, following burning the girl alive, the group of teenage girls calmly ate breakfast at a local McDonald's, where by way of their own court testimony, they say they ate sausages and joked that it looked like Shanda's remains.
"It's horrendous," Jacque weeps. "It's absolutely horrendous. It's beyond belief."
Two of the girls who murdered Shanda Sharer are already out of jail. Toni Lawrence served only eight years, and Hope Rippey, 15.
"I have tried so hard to deal with Shanda's death with a little bit of dignity, because I'm Shanda's voice now," Jacque says. "The only thing I've ever asked is for these girls to serve their sentences. The only one that ever has is Laurie Tackett." The other three exhausted their appeals, asked for re-sentencing, and requested early releases.
"There was only one thing they could do to show their remorse " and they couldn't even do that. I don't feel good about that at all," Jacque tells Dr. Phil.
Paije says she finds herself thinking about the four murderers, and their futures. She wonders if they will think about their crime in a different way when they have children of their own. Toni was the first released, and is now a mother.
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Dr. Phil analyzes Laurie's statements that she was peer pressured into her actions that night. "That is unequivocally crap," he says. "You cannot tell me that these girls were not brought into this, and pursued it with vigor. They had opportunities, and hours away, to step away [and make the right decision].
"That is offensive to me," Dr. Phil tells Shanda's family.