The Holiday 12: Bekki

From Barbie to Unbearable?
"I've gained so much weight, I don't even recognize who I am anymore. By looking at me, nobody would think that I was a real-life Barbie doll," laments Bekki. "Mattel, the makers of Barbie, hired me as a real-life in-store Barbie Doll. I got to pose for pictures and give autographs as Barbie. I felt great about myself."
 
"She was so beautiful. She was so confident," recalls her husband, David.
 
"My life completely fell apart when I started to put on weight. My life went from Barbie to unbearable. Food became my friend. I just wanted to eat anything," Bekki says. She says she weighed 130 pounds four years ago and now weighs 225 pounds, going from a size 4 to a size 20. "I feel like I'm drowning in food. The holidays are brutal. We have cookies, cakes, chips and dip, cheeses, key lime pie, cheesecake, potato salad. I want to eat it all. Last year, I gained 30 pounds. The holidays are an excuse. You can eat whatever you want, right?"
  
"You've gone from a 4 to a 20, and you don't feel good about yourself," Dr. Phil says to Bekki.
 
"No, I am so uncomfortable in my skin," she replies. Gesturing to a picture of herself on the large-screen monitor, she says, "I cannot believe that's me."
 
[AD]"What do you see when you see yourself on the videotape?"
 
"The ‘Barbie Bekki,' the skinny Bekki, I almost don't even recognize that person. I feel like I didn't enjoy it when I had it. It's a shame, because I looked great. Now, when I see the bigger ones, it's devastating. There are no words to explain how I feel when I see that."
 
"It hurts," Dr. Phil sympathizes.
 
"It hurts a lot," Bekki agrees, her voice tremulous. "I don't know how I did this to myself."
In the studio, Dr. Phil asks Bekki, "How much weight did you gain last holiday season?"
 
"Almost 40 pounds," she answers.
 
"What happened?" Dr. Phil asks.
 
"When it's the holidays, the food is so good, and it's out there. Even though people know that I'm trying to lose weight, they'll bring over the cakes and the cookies," Bekki replies.
 
In a previously recorded interview, Bekki says being ashamed of her body has caused her to miss major milestones in her 3-year-old son's life.
 
[AD]"My weight has turned me into a hermit, a recluse. It's just me, the refrigerator, the couch and the TV. I just feel isolated all the time. I just stay inside and keep the blinds closed. I don't want them to see how much weight I've gained. They know me as skinny Bekki, as Barbie," she says.
 
"During the week, our son doesn't really get out of the house that often," David shares. "What concerns me is that he's just not getting outside, being able to play and be a young little boy."
 
"I'm just too embarrassed to take my son out to play," Bekki says. "He doesn't deserve to have kids make fun of him because he has a fat mom. I miss all of these precious moments. I have to hear about it, because I wasn't there. My greatest fear is for my son to not have the mother he deserves"
"Let's talk about the plan. We're talking about four Cycles of 17 days where you don't have to make a decision," Dr. Phil tells Bekki.
 
"I'm excited. I love the idea," Bekki says. "I'm thrilled."
 
"You don't have to make a decision; the decision is made for you," Dr. Phil reiterates. "You eat the program. You eat what's there."
 
"The book is full of different options," Dr. Mike adds. "We all have different tastes. I think the beauty of this is that there are so many options, and you're never going to get bored. And again â€" we keep going back to it â€" you're constantly changing and challenging your body. That process makes you lose weight."
 
[AD]Dr. Mike has already devised Bekki's plan for the first week. A sample breakfast consists of two scrambled egg whites, 1/2 grapefruit and one cup of green tea. Lunch includes a large green salad topped with tuna, one tablespoon olive oil and two tablespoons balsamic vinegar and one cup of green tea. For dinner, she can have grilled chicken with liberal servings of asparagus and mushrooms and a cup of green tea. For a snack, she can have six ounces of sugar-free plain yogurt mixed with one to two tablespoons of sugar-free jam and a serving of red grapes.
 
"The whole Accelerate Cycle is cleansing and just getting that rapid response that you want. The fat-burning process begins immediately, and you see these results fast," Dr. Mike explains.
 
Dr. Mike reveals his Hunger/Fullness Meter.
 
Hunger Meter 1: I'm a little hungry.
Hunger Meter 2: I'm so hungry I need something to eat fast!
Fullness Meter 3: I'm starting to feel full.
Fullness Meter 4: I'm so stuffed, I've eaten too much!
 
"The likelihood of someone being hungry is not the case. It's likely that you're just bored," he explains.
 
"If you're full and you're still eating, everything you've eaten for the last 10, 15 minutes you didn't even want. That's why you've got to be mindful of this," Dr. Phil adds.
 
Dr. Phil has a life-sized cardboard image of Bekki as "Barbie" brought out onstage. She wipes her eyes when she sees that thinner replica of herself.
 
"This was a time in your life when you felt how?" Dr. Phil asks.
 
[AD]"Confident, happy. I could do anything," she answers. "I don't even know who that girl is anymore, because the light has gone out of my eyes."
 
"That is you. You need to be nicer to her than your parents were to you," Dr. Phil says. "You haven't done that."
 
Bekki shakes her head.
 
"There's something I want you to think about: If and when you get back to this, you're not going to be one bit better person," Dr. Phil says. "It's not about the wrapper. You are a loving, committed and devoted mother, and you are desperate to get control back in your life."
Dr. Phil praises Bekki for having the courage to share her weight loss struggles on national television. "That is why I want you to embrace Dr. Mike's program," he says. "Before you know it, you're going to look up and go, ‘Whoa. I do have some mastery over myself. I have food working for me instead of me working for food."
 
"Anybody can do it," Dr. Mike says. "You can control this and get back to where you were. We're going to make it so easy for you."
 
"I'm completely committed," Bekki says. "I want to do this for me. I can't love my husband as well, I can't love my son as well, and I can't be as good of a person that I know I can be if I can't love me first."
 
[AD]"You need to start being your own best friend again," Dr. Phil says.
 
Starting in January, Dr. Phil will be kicking off a new 17 Day Weight Loss Challenge! He invites Kim, Clint and Bekki to come back and participate in the Challenge!
 
To be a part of the 17 Day Weight Loss Challenge, click here to apply today!
 
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