John says every day, he tries to put on a mask of normalcy because he has disturbing urges to torture, dismember and kill people — and says he even fears himself.
John claims there are two triggers that bring out the monster in him: alcohol and his younger sister, Jennifer. John says he has always been fascinated by serial killers, but he never expected one of the most notorious serial killers in U.S. history, Arthur Shawcross, to reach out to him and become his pen pal for several years, revealing many gruesome secrets. John hears the truth about this evil man he says became a father figure when he meets Shawcross’ long-lost daughter, Maggie, and Shawcross’ first victim’s sister, Robin. Can Dr. Phil and the two women help change John’s mind about Shawcross? TELL DR. PHIL YOUR STORY: Is Dr. Phil your only hope?