Nicholas Brendon, the actor best known for his role on “Buffy The Vampire Slayer” and “Criminal Minds,” has made headlines after six arrests for alcohol fueled incidents in five years, the most recent of which occurred just two months ago after a domestic dispute with his girlfriend. Two months after walking off Dr. Phil’s stage mid-interview saying “We’re done,” he sits down with Dr. Phil again; this time Brendon is ready to get candid about his past, his substance abuse, his depression, and his desire for help.

In the video above, Brendon is heard calling a Dr. Phil producer after his last show appearance, crying, “Please, help me.”

“What were you feeling in that moment?” Dr Phil asks.

“Hopeless, probably and afraid,” replies Brendon, 44. “I think I just have a lot of shame. I just look at my life and I just think how things could have been different … I went to rehab for the first time in ’03. What if I had stayed sober? I get into the what ifs … I think I’m also afraid to ask for help.”

When Dr. Phil asks about Brendon’s reported suicide attempt in September, Brendon opens up about trying to cut his wrists with a steak knife.

“Did you want to die that day?” Dr. Phil probes.