Darnell says he started smoking marijuana at age 12 and began drinking heavily about five years ago, after his first girlfriend, Sara, died from meningitis.

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“After that night, I drank to get drunk. I ended up in a dark hole,” says Darnell, adding, “That definitely kicked off a snowball effect of me finding myself blackout drunk all the time.”

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On New Year’s Day, 2020, Darnell, 23, was captured on a video doorbell security camera assaulting his now ex-girlfriend on a stranger’s doorstep while their infant daughter was left alone in the car just yards away. He acknowledges that it’s him in the video but claims he was drunk and has no memory of the incident.

Darnell says he never properly grieved Sara’s death. Does he blame that for his problems with alcohol today?

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